Being good.

I grew up in a very strict household, I couldn’t go out just for fun. It was either school or meetings (church) nothing else. The sleepovers I had was with a friend at my church and they were so fun! ;) but in my teenage years I was very sheltered. I wasn’t allowed to talk to no boys, if I go out with my friends which was very rare! My mom would need to know all of the peoples phone numbers and their names, if there was a boy there then I am not going!

I used to lie to my mom but not to go hang out with boys; just to hang out with my girls. I was in a basket ball team and my mom used to always check my phone to make sure I wasn’t talking to no boys! Truth is I did talk to boys my age but they annoyed me ! When they would call my phone I would be so confused like “what do you want?” Do you know who my mom is!? She will find you and cut your balls off. My mom didn’t play no games with me, she did not let me hang out with any boys. She would drop me off and pick me up herself after school ! It was so embarrassing. One time she saw me standing next to a boy she was sooo mad ! I told her “ look at him I would never date him” I was sooo mean when I was little lol! 

Which is why in my early twenties I didn’t understand why my friends wanted to hang out with men. When they would say there will be boys there I would be like “for what? Can’t we  go out just us? “I used to hate it when boys would try to dance with me at parties ! I would be so rude about it but after a while I danced with a few guys. I would want to throw up when a man try to touch me! 

I hated men with a passion! I just wanted to hang out with my girls. Gosh I was sooo upset when my friends will start dating a guy; I would automatically drop them because I thought it was a weak move like you would rather date a man than to enjoy life!?

My views on men have changed; I still don’t feel comfortable with all men and I think that’s fair. Unless I have a connection with you, then you will not get near me 10 feet is enough.