Questions 

1. Candle-lit dinner or picnic date?

Candle-lit dinner all the way because I don’t like sitting on grass, especially for a date (I’m already nervous imagine me on grass with my allergies flaring up! If it’s during the spring forget it he will think I have the flu for sneezing so much)  I love fancy things! 

1. Are you jealous? 

I am very protective! If I consider you mine and I love you I will go above and beyond. I know how much I can love which is why I don’t take that word lightly until I’m sure oh wait that’s not the question! Uhm yes I am jealous lol! Well not too bad but enough that I notice everything. I am fine with my man having girls he’s friends with, but I need him to have boundaries and to keep me as his one and only. I like knowing other girls want my man, but they can’t have him lol.

1. Favorite flowers?

Any purple flowers or white roses :)

1. how many dates have you been on this year?

Ugh, can I let you in on a little secret? After my dad passed away, I felt so numb and so alone that I went out with people I won’t even talk to anymore now that I have come to my senses. I wanted company, and I felt bad because of that; I should’ve stayed alone. I went on a lot of dates but none that matters

I will share my work out from now on, yes it's a lot but to me it's just enough

work out plan for today 

warm up: 15 mns

jog for 10 minutes.

leg swings, hip circles, jumping jacks (5 minutes)

Glute workout routine: isolation work out on monday 1.30 hr

1. squats (3 sets of 12 reps with weights)2 dumbbells 40 lbs weight=80

2. rdl's ( 5 sets of 20 with weights each leg) 2 dumbbells 40 lbs weight=80

3. Bulgarian squats (6 sets of 10 each leg) 1 dumbbell 40 lbs weight

4. sumo squats (6 sets of 20)2 dumbbells 40 lbs weight=80

5. B- Stance Rdl on the wall ( 5 sets of 15 each leg) 1 dumbbell 40 lbs 

6. good mornings on cable machine ( 4 sets of 20) 95 weight

7. leg kick back on glute machine (4 sets of 10 each leg on 90 weight)

8. step ups (4 sets of 20 each leg ) 30 lbs weight kettle bell

stretch 

ab work out 

1. Russian twist (4 sets of 12)

2. crunches ( 3 sets of 10)

3. plank 1 minute

finish it off:

stair master 30 minutes

Mistreatment in the marriage. 

The topic I am about to discuss is very delicate please read with caution.

I am not married nor have I ever been married but I have friends who are married and I wish them all the happiness in the world with their spouses. Today when I got home from the meeting I watch a very disheartening video about a woman who left her husband because something horrible happened. The woman has 4 children I believe two girls both 2 and 4 years old and she has two older boys. 

She’s been married for quite some time and I must say she’s very beautiful! So educated, so well spoken and well dressed. She used to always make videos about how to attract a man, how to get the ring… I never watch those videos because I always think that they’re useless. Everyone has a different experience with love, I am extremely weird lol so what will work on another woman will not work for me, I’ve never even cared to date anyone yet. Back to the story this is not about my boring dating life, she made a video 2 days ago explaining to her audience why she has been absent for so long and how she left her husband a month ago. Before this video I have never seen her on my screen but after that video I went and scan through all the things she used to post. She was very proud of her “rich husband” but it wasn’t all roses and flowers as she made it seemed. She explain that the man raped her 4 times in just a couple of months into their marriage! I was enraged! Why are men so cruel?! This is why I hate men! Well not all men but some men are horrible. She said  even after that happened she kept trying to move past it ( I will speak on this later but I must get through her story) she then proceeded to say one day while she was changing her 4 year old daughter she realize her daughter had red marks in her genitalia and she was sensitive down there immediately she knew someone touched her daughter so she politely asked “baby did someone touched you” the little girl answered “it was daddy” immediately she felt her world came crashing down but she advised her daughter not to say anything to her father, because she had to wait for him to get home with her other children because he was picking them up from school. When they got home she gathered all her kids and she told her husband that she was going shopping, then she went straight to the police. The police then escorted her to the hospital with the kids to examine the kids when she got there she found out her husband was touching both of her little girls ( ugh I’m crying writing this) what a monster. I assumed her husband was arrested but she didn’t say if he was.

My thoughts 

As the lady said she herself went through something similar as a child, she was abused and she knows all the signs so she was very strict with her kids but she forgot to

look inside her home because while she was sleeping the monster was hurting her kids. I will be strict with my kids when I have them, especially girls. I will not allowed my kids to sleep over at anyone’s house, I will not allow them to sit on any strangers or men’s lap even if I know you my kid can sit on a chair she doesn’t need to be on your lap. Do not kiss my kid on the lips, do not hold my kid under her dress, do not touch her hair or her face if you’re a man. I’m sorry I just don’t want any man whom I don’t trust around my daughter. Poor lady I feel her, but she should’ve seen the red flag in the beginning when he raped her. It’s so easy to say but that’s your spouse you supposed to satisfy their needs but she’s not a sex slave! She doesn’t always have to be at your disposal. Some people are less sexually stimulated than others, if they say no then it’s NO don’t force it! If they’re sleeping don’t try anything because that’s rape! Remember this act needs to be consensual whether married or not. 

Blood line by Lynda La Plante 

This is the current book I am reading, and I am very invested. I was getting tired of authors like Colleen Hoover who has an overly erotic type of writing. This book is more so crime fiction, since I am into true crimes I figured why not dive into it.

I am on chapter 7 as I am writing this but by tomorrow, I should be on my way to chapter 9 or 10. The main character Anna is a detective who just lost her fiancé, she’s refusing to take time off. She wants to keep

Working, right now she’s investigating a case of a missing man. At first she didn’t have much evidence to classify this case as a murder case, she was eventually thinking the man  simply vanished because he was trying to run away from his current life. 

But the man has been missing  for 8 weeks and he was only reported missing 2 weeks later by his girlfriend and father. Her and her partner has been around asking neighbors, and co workers about the man , he was described as a quote on quote nice guy, he was always to himself never raised his voice and avoid altercations at all costs but was he hiding something? 

What about his girlfriend why is she nonchalant about the whole thing isn’t she worried? Why does she quickly ask for a lawyer when they start questioning her?

Anna just discovered new evidence in the case that could suggest a murder took place in  the apartment  the man shared with his girlfriend, she found blood stains behind the bed which suggest that the victim was hit with a blunt object which would suggest evidence of foul play. It looked like the victim was lying on the floor or at edge of the bed while blood splattered on the floor. 

To be honest I am not sure if the girlfriend killed him, to be honest she doesn’t fit the description of a killer. She owns a hair salon, but she is very clean! Which is why when the detectives entered the apartment they smelled a strong odor of bleach and immediately Anna thought what was she hiding? Why did she had to clean every surface ? Now that they are treating the apartment as a murder scene the girlfriend has to stay somewhere else. 

I think : the guy is not a nice guy at all, I think he killed someone in the apartment and cleaned it up before the girlfriend got home and he ran away. I also think he was gay! lol I don’t know why but people described him as someone who’s super clean! But he’s a mechanic! I don’t know it’s just my thought. I do believe that he’s dead but if he’s not dead he’s badly injured somewhere. It’s just a matter of time before Anna finds a body but I don’t think it will be the missing man’s body… 

I’ll keep reading, it’s too interesting. I love this author’s style of writing, she doesn’t linger on useless details ! She gets straight to the point and everything is clear. 

Teresa 

A lot has happened! And yes, I am still watching this show lol I can’t look away it’s like a boat about to crash and I have to see when it does!

But I want to talk about one specific character today especially because I feel like I won’t see him as much on the show anymore. His name is Martin and for the love of God I hope I meet a man like him! He is so attentive, so understanding, so caring, so polite, so beautiful inside and out! Ouhhhh I love this guy in the show. At first, I didn’t like him because he was always joking around but after a while he made me laugh and chuckle! 

He's dating Aurora on the show, she’s the girl with the most beautiful smile. They are great together but let’s not forget Aurora always loved Mariano since high school, she told Martin about this, but he said he was willing to date aurora and help her forget Mariano. At first, I thought that was a dumb move because the girl is clearly in love with someone else but after a while I realize Martin is the person she needs! Normally Aurora would be sad and always following Mariano around to make sure that he doesn’t do anything stupid with Teresa. Especially when Mariano was crying because Teresa left him for Arturo, aurora was there holding Mariano ! They are best friends. She loves Mariano so much! And it pains her to see him in pain because of Teresa.

Martin stayed by Aurora’s side he made her laugh, but she could never fall in love with him, she loved Martin, but she was not in love with him! In the episode I am in Aurora is about to get married with Martin but Martin walked in on Aurora kissing Mariano which I knew they both loved each other, it was just not the right time. But immediately after the kiss Aurora stopped Mariano because she is a good person she said «  I can’t do this to Martin I am about to marry him, I doubt that he will marry me after I tell him what just happened! Martin is a wonderful man he makes me happy and you are still in love with Teresa I don’t want to wait around for you » Martin heard everything and after he met with Aurora at one of his restaurants and he tells her «  I want to thank you for bringing so much light into my life and for all the beautiful moments we spent together but I am setting you free » ugh! What an Angel! He didn’t argue with her but gently he lets her go. He is so sweet and so gentle. Although he loves her and no one can deny that but he was willing to let go and be happy even if that meant with someone else! That’s true love! 

I will talk about Aurora and Mariano struggle love later.