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2020-07-27T03:06:45+02:00

new beginnings

Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Juillet 2020 à 03:06 AM

I love new beginnings and starting over after I've given myself enough time to move on. I don't like letting go but I know that I must do it because my happiness means way more. No one should ever make you feel like you have to sacrifice your happiness for them. In the past, I have been through a lot of things which makes me proud to say that I am stronger and I say that in the most humble way.

A new beginning is good but it can be scary, the feeling of being calm will take over and little by little you will accept the change. Give yourself more chances and take risks because life is boring when you do the same thing over and over.

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2020-07-26T06:55:51+02:00

how to bounce back. (will add more later I have an excruciating headache)

Publié par Gaelle.R 26 Juillet 2020 à 06:55 AM

This is for you if you're trying to bounce back or trying to get back up after something that was meant to break you. to be honest we all encounter problems and hardships in life that can make us feel down and read ready to give up. I am going to try my best to tell you what I have done in the past when I was going through something that was meant to break me.

Allow yourself to cry. Most of us think that it is weak to cry but t's not; it's okay to cry just give yourself a few days or as long as you need because some of us may need longer time...just give yourself that time and no you're not weak the more you cry the more you allow yourself to be free from the damages that were caused. Let it out and let yourself be sad. You need to express your emotions and feelings.
talk to someone you trust. I learn that when I keep things to myself and when I make my own assumption it sounds more dramatic in my head but when I explain my true feelings to someone and I say out loud what happened it sounds less dramatic and I realize that I can solve the problem and get through it.
focus on yourself, now I know people say "just focus on yourself and you will be fine." it does sound easier than it looks when all you want to is to focus on your problems. Focusing on you won't be easy when you're sad because you won't want to eat, you won't even want to take a shower all you would probably want to do when you feel like you've been beaten emotionally by something is to stay in bed and do nothing. Start slow and I am going to be very detailed because most people say "focus on yourself " but they don't really tell you what to do or what that means well I am going to tell you a few things. Start by brushing your teeth every day (not that you've never done it but really focus on it while you're doing it it's like you're being self-aware that you're brushing your teeth), keep a skincare routine (there's a sort of feeling of accomplishment and a feeling of being beautiful when you have good skin), eat different types of food try not to eat the same thing every day it can be boring and that's probably why you don't even want to eat because you don't try to eat anything exciting so really try new food.
Read a book that will uplift you. when you read positive things that will uplift your spirit you will slowly become positive and that dark cloud that is looming over you will slowly disappear. Personally reading the bible helps me a lot because there's nothing more comforting than to read the words coming directly from God to help you get through a difficult situation.
Get your hair done and your nails done. If you're a guy just get a hair cut and yes you should keep your nails clean so get it done. You will feel a lot better and prettier. Change your hair by coloring, adding highlights, or cut it if it was bad break up trust me there's something that happens to your soul when you cut your hair it's like a detox as you letting the past go. But get a cute hair cut that goes well with your face, hair grows back so it's like new hair with a new life lol

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2020-07-25T06:47:59+02:00

you and only you.

Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Juillet 2020 à 06:47 AM

I never thought that it was possible but you make my heart beat fast as if it's about to jump out of my chest.

I want to hear your voice every day.

when you're near nothing else matters.

when your eyes meet mine the world just stop.

when you smile at me I feel like the luckiest person on earth.

when you touch my hand electricity run throughout my whole body to light up my heart.

I want to run but I am mesmerized by you and that is the first time I feel this way.

For you, I let everyone and everything that can be a distraction go.

I have never been so sure, but I can say vividly that "I want you" to you and everyone.

Something that made me cry 2 weeks ago seems like a faraway memory because here you are erasing everything.

where were you all this time?

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2020-07-21T05:41:26+02:00

currently.

Publié par Gaelle.R 21 Juillet 2020 à 05:41 AM

well, there is not much to say except that I am basically been watching the show house and I am obsessed all over again. I remember watching it when I was a kid. Now I can understand more about what is going on and I love it lol.

It's been really hot lately, I know that I always " I am not going to talk about the weather" but I just cannot skip it I mean it is so hot that I feel dizzy. I love taking naps throughout the day but it's almost impossible without a fan (poor me I know lol)

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2020-07-16T22:25:45+02:00

Before you think about gaining weight see if you're ready for these ...

Publié par Gaelle.R 16 Juillet 2020 à 10:25 PM

Basically whatever I am about to tell you is based on a true story about my life currently. Before I gained weight I used to think that it is the hardest Thing ever (it is if you're skinny with a fast metabolism) I am happy to say that I have finally gained some weight and I couldn't be happier; it's like a dream come true. Let me tell you all about it.

first of all, no one told me that when you gain weight your face would be big and chunky like that never crossed my mind that I was going to gain weight in my face too. I look like a chipmunk but I love it because it is all new to me.
I didn't look at the possibility that I would have to shop for new clothes because the current clothes that I have will no longer fit. That came to me as a shock, all my clothes always fit. I have history with them like some of them I've been wearing since I was 15 all of this to show you that I never really gained weight until now and I just didn't think that I would have to get rid of old clothes. sigh, I am happy though because this is all new to me.
you walk differently. Yup at first you feel kinda weird like this extra thigh never been here before. sometimes it may get uncomfortable as you're still learning which clothes fit your body type as it is changing and your style might even change or improve!
seeing a big number on the scale like whaaaaat ? no way. As scary as it may be to some people but when you always dream about gaining weight it is really fun and probably the happiest moment of your life to see that you have finally gained weight.
looking at yourself in the mirror and feeling like it's someone else standing there because how in the world did you get those curves? of course, you're happy and maybe a little too much...maybe you wake up from a nap to go see yourself again in the mirror to make sure your curves are still there !! ok alright some of you who were born with curves won't get it.

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2020-07-16T03:30:29+02:00

motivation.

Publié par Gaelle.R 16 Juillet 2020 à 03:30 AM

things that motivate me when I feel down.

knowing that I am not perfect and that I can always try again when I mess up. Knowing that all setbacks are actually a way to gain more wisdom instead of looking at it as a failure.
watching funny videos from SNL even if I am not laughing at first but I will be laughing soon lol.
listening to upbeat music and somehow I always see myself dancing lol I mean we all tend to listen to sad songs when we're already sad and it's almost impossible to force ourselves not to do it but trust me upbeat music will help to lighten up your mood.
shopping. okay, this is tricky because I either go on a shopping spree while I am sad about some dumb little thing and I get home to find a real reason to be sad because I just spent all my money on some ridiculous stuff. I am not proud of it someone please hide my wallet while I'm sad. (exasperation emoji inserted)
I read things that I have already written for this specific time, things like:" a heartbreak well read this" "financial crisis well read this." "lost a friend well read this." " feeling betrayed well read this" and the list goes on. Yeah, I am made from a different cloth so what?

truth is I only allow myself to be sad for a few days... one week is the longest time I give myself. If I cannot solve the situation well I have no choice but to let it go. My happiness is more important. yeah I may look devastated like life is over or that I am about to end my life but I'm not; I'll be fine The God that I serve always keeps me happy even through the darkest time he is my rock.

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2020-07-16T03:16:16+02:00

need.

Publié par Gaelle.R 16 Juillet 2020 à 03:16 AM

looking to adopt or buy a cat.

for all inquiries email me.

*also if my landlord sees this, it's not for me it's for a friend.

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2020-07-11T18:23:22+02:00

some weird questions.

Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Juillet 2020 à 06:23 PM

I love asking questions and maybe a little too much; that's how I understand things and people so I'm just getting more knowledge I guess.

Are you a texter or a caller?

uhm I am both but it depends on the time like during the day I am always doing something but later at night I am usually just sitting there watching a show or a movie. I do like texting but I feel like I understand people better when I talk to them on the phone.

shave or wax?

I like wax, I usually wax my eyebrows because I feel like it is more define that way.

red lipstick or pink?

uhm both but I wear pink lipstick more. I only like to wear red lipstick on special events.

coffee or tea?

uhm both. I like coffee in the morning and tea before going to bed.

long hair or short hair?

I like shoulder length and big hair.

straight or curly?

curly !.

unpacking or packing?

I like to pack things more than I unpack them.

black or white?

I like the color white when I have a lot of positive vibes around me and black when I'm just trying to make it through the day I guess.

singing or dancing?

both. I like to sing and dance.

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2020-07-10T04:33:16+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 10 Juillet 2020 à 04:33 AM

God created writing for people like me who feel everything but say nothing.

People who rely on ink to fill up an empty space.

People who see a finished manuscript with their name written on the front cover when they close their eyes at night.

People who cry themselves on a paper instead of twitter.

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2020-07-07T16:59:12+02:00

fix your crown.

Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Juillet 2020 à 04:59 PM

some of us, including me, have been in position where we forget our worth and we forget what we deserve. I have put myself in a position for others to laugh at me, for others to see me being vulnerable, for others to see how pathetic I am. Maybe I am being hard on myself but I can never erase what I saw and what I felt. After all that, I let the tears drown my face and I pick my crown back up and place right above my head. I stopped crying and I realize that I had to be vulnerable to learn, I had to let my pride down to learn more about life so I'll never put myself in that position again.

Yes I failed, yes I made a mistake or many but this time I'm fixing my crown. I know that God loves and values me now it's time for me to value myself.

so thank you for the lesson. Thank you for showing me that I had to go through this to realize that I need to love myself better.

I am a fighter which is why I never take no for an answer I always fight to change things but sometimes I just need to accept that no amount of love, no amount of goodness, no amount of kindness can change someone's mind into accepting me. That's when I need to love myself harder, that's when I need to focus more on God, that's when I need to keep fixing my crown. that's when I need to keep being kind to myself and to anyone else, hurt will not make me bitter. I have learned my lesson now it's time for me to grow.

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