If there's one weird thing about me and there's a lot of them but it's the fact that I act like a teenage girl when I like a guy! people, my age definitely don't act like this. They are calm about it because they've dated people in the past and then there's me who hasn't been in a single relationship! like I've been single all my life lol.
Imagine a 28-year-old saying "omg I think I have a crush on him, do you think he likes me? what should I do?" uhm no! at this big age I am still having crushes lol I mean it's not embarrassing because I am a kid at heart even if I look serious but don't let my face fool you. I am still in my awkward dating stage! I am so awkward with men I like gee ugh I need help! with men I don't like I am not awkward at all; I am super calm and that's why they end up liking me. The more I like you the weirder I will make things ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I hate it
I won’t get any more real than this! As a woman I’ve had so many experiences in my 28 years of living that I realized a few things in love.
My advise to you and what I am doing moving forward
Love is not all butterfly at first you may not like the guy, he not be your type but something about him may still intrigued you hold on to that thing.
He might not be tall, that’s alright not all men are supposed to be tall. True Love has nothing to do with someone’s height. Stop being superficial.
Your type may never like you back, you have to move on from the ideal man you have in mind and find someone who truly loves you.
Find someone who genuinely cares about you and always ask how you are before asking you about anything else. A guy who listens to you and makes time for you.
The man you want is ignoring you, no problem he’s not the one for you babe. Someone else is head over heels for you so just give that guy a fair chance. Let him get to know you, be friends with him. Create a bound with a man that loves you not someone who’s not sure about you.
Let go of the man you want and find a man that wants you.
I plan on getting married in the next 2 years, I want kids and a beautiful family. There’s no more time to waste.
Now that a huge part of the holidays are over and I am sane again let’s debunk everything and the reasons why I don’t celebrate Christmas as well as my birthday.
As you all should know by now I am a Jehovah witness and I am proud to be because each day I am reminded of Jehovah’s love and all the reasons why I should keep going down this path. Let’s talk about Christmas first aside from my religious beliefs which made me believe that Christmas is unnecessary and it is a holiday people made up to feel better about themselves and to force people to exchange gift. Let me not be morbid about it because I want you to keep reading, if you are a die hard fan of Christmas then please pay attention I want to tell you some facts about this holiday you love so much, not that it will make a difference to you as I fully expect you to click off this article and celebrate Christmas again next year. Baby steps I just want you to be aware of some things
Christmas is supposed to be a Christian holiday so if you are Jewish then you probably have Hanukah but let’s focus on Christmas for now. This holiday is supposed to be about the birth of Jesus and the gift exchange stems from the gifts given by the 3 wise man to baby Jesus which all happened but not on December 25!If the dates are wrong then how is this supposed to be a legit holiday? One thing we are certain of is that Jesus was in fact born on earth by Mary when God sent his only son to save us from all of our sins to die for us on earth but wait, was it in December ? The actual date of Jesus being born is truly unknown unless you ask Mary but she’s not here to say. The Bible doesn’t specifically say which day Jesus was born which lead me to believe that it was not important and the whole idea of making a big deal about the day you were born is unnecessary. But the Bible gave us some clues which lead me to believe that Jesus was not born in the winter or in December. Sorry to get all biblical on you but if this is a Christian holiday we should at least consult the Bible don’t you think? One clue we need to consider : Shortly before Jesus was born, Caesar Augustus issued a decree ordering “all the inhabited earth to be registered.” Everyone had to register in “his own city,” which might have required a journey of a week or more that can be found luke 2:1-3 if this all happened in December it is unlikely that Augustus would have provoked his subjects further by forcing many of them to make long trips during the cold winter
Shepherds were “living out of doors and keeping watches in the night over their flocks this is found in Luke 2:8 flocks lived in the open air from “the week before the Passover which is late March through mid-November. They passed the winter under cover; and from this alone it may be seen that the traditional date for Christmas, in the winter, is unlikely to be right, since the Gospel says that the shepherds were in the fields.
If all those clues exist for us to see in the Bible then why is Christmas in December ?
Since there is no evidence that the birth of Jesus Christ occurred on December 25, TheEncyclopædia Britannicasays that church leaders probably chose it “to coincide with the pagan Roman festival marking the ‘birthday of the unconquered sun,’” at the time of the winter solstice. According toThe Encyclopedia Americana, many scholars believe that this was done “in order to make Christianity more meaningful to pagan converts
From what I can see here Christmas was created by people to worship many things but none of them was actually about Jesus Christ. Christmas alone is a huge financial boost for the country as everyone is buying gift for people they know which allows the economy to grow and every ads on tv screen or social media is pushing you to buy something for anyone that you know. What makes it worse is that if you celebrate Christmas all you expect is to receive gifts and if someone doesn’t give you a gift you are offended!
It’s not special if you are expecting it!
You get mad if someone doesn’t wish you a merry Christmas or if that one person you thought loved you didn’t give you a Christmas gift! That is not very Christian like is it? Because no one owes you anything! A gift should be from the kindness of your heart not because you are expected to give one. That takes all the fun out of it! I know people who have contest on who gave the best gift!? Why should it matter? When Mary accept the gift from the wise man she didn’t look at it and say oh it’s just blankets? No she appreciated all the gift because she needed it.
One big clue I forgot to mention is that Jesus was born in a stable where donkeys and other animals are kept then Mary wrapped baby Jesus and lays him in a manger all of this wouldn’t have been possible in the cold ! It would’ve been very unsafe for a pregnant woman to give birth in such a cold environment and God wouldn’t have allowed his son to be born this way.
Christmas happening in the winter is very convenient because you have snow which makes it prettier then on top of all of that nonsense you get to purchase a Christmas tree to have in your living room for a couple of weeks but then waking up the day after Christmas feeling total disgust when you look at that tree because Christmas is over and now you have to take all of it down. Where did the Christmas tree idea come from? Did Jesus have a Christmas tree where he was born? Well certainly not since he was born in a stable. Well to answer the first question Christmas tree wasn’t originated form the Bible at all it came from a German guy who thought it would be a great idea to chop down a tree and put a bunch of lights on it just for fun because I guess it looked good? This all happened in the 1820s so I couldn’t tell you his state of mind but needless to say someone came up with it then the rest of the people followed. Are we following a trend now? As a Christian we should be following Jesus christ not people ! But hey who cares many people know this but still choose to ignore it and celebrate Christmas every year.
Birthdays.
Well it doesn’t help that my birthday falls the day before Christmas. You might be shocked by this revelation but I celebrated my birthday before and it felt so weird.
It didn’t feel right in my spirit because I couldn’t tell you why I did it! Aside from the provocative clothing which I don’t dress like this anymore ! I didn’t even eat the cake in the picture ! It was disgusting! This was my liberal phase.
I did it because I thought it would be fun, I would have a photo shoot like the one above before the day of my birthday just so I could post the pictures on my birthday on every possible social media I have so that people can then wish me a happy birthday, then I would expect my best friend at the time to also post me on her social media page to wish me a happy birthday ! The entitlement! Ugh celebrating birthdays in my opinion is so attention seeking ! I don’t mind if on your birthday you sit down by yourself and think about your whole life as you just turn 1 year older but to me it is just a normal day! Nothing else. What’s more important is how you live your life not the actual day you were born, it is a miracle that you are here but God wanted you to be here ! He created you so just be thankful that’s all!
Celebrating one’s birthday has a sense of narcissism to it in my opinion it’s like this is my day! I expect a party and I expect cake! Uhm again no one owes you anything! Just be glad you are alive because many people didn’t get to live the age you just turned, some people might say that’s why they are celebrating but wait! Isn’t it more genuine if you expect nothing and still feel grateful? Why suddenly I expect everyone I know to call me to wish me a happy birthday and to stop talking to them if they don’t call me?! The world doesn’t revolve around me! People have real life problems so what if they forget me on my birthday? It’s just a day to me. As a Christian I am following the footsteps of Christ he didn’t once mentioned his birthday, to the point where no one knows what day it was ! He was very humble about it, he asked us to celebrate his death as a way to remember his sacrifice to us and how we have a chance at an everlasting life but not once did he say celebrate my birthday as a way to remember me! So no birthdays are not important to me and so is Christmas.
Everything that was thrown at me Jehovah delivered me from it. Whether it was death, financial loss, pain, heartache, anger, hunger, or depression Jehovah never left me. I am not the best daughter I often let my emotions get the best of me. I don’t know how to control some of my urges but God has been helping me through it all.
If there’s one thing I learned this year is to never give up! Always keep fighting! Stay smiling! Never let my emotions get the best of me. Jehovah is the best father a girl could ask for, he is the one and only. Love is never far, friendship blooms in unexpected places, always remain positive ❤️
Can we talk about the downfall of Manchester city??? It's sooo sad ! what is going on? they lost the last 13 games and got a draw today :( they're #7 in the premier league they used to be first!! Pep Guardiola is stressed and Haaland is completely transparent. where's Phil Foden? I love Manchester city and that's why I can't watch this. This is not my team; they need to wake up whatever it is they can get over it. If they keep playing like that, they won't qualify for the champions league. No one is talking about Haaland's level or how Manchester city is playing badly but everyone was talking about Mbappe's level and how Real Madrid was playing. Don't get me wrong I love both Haaland and Mbappe, I never like to compare them because they both play differently. I hope Haaland plays better and start scoring goals again
You all know how I feel about the holidays; I don't celebrate any holiday by the way but the one from December- January is soooo depressing. I can't relate to anyone, I love the days off, but I am not celebrating anything. I feel so lonely ugh I spent the whole day sleeping yesterday on the 25th. I normally sleep all day when I am depressed, I couldn't even go work out because the gym was closed. I was so bored, so I slept the whole day. I hate those days... I am always sad. The fact that my brother/ cousin died on 12/23/2018 doesn't help, I miss him so much. I love him so much, poor baby he didn't deserve to die so young.
1. Dont strive to “fall in love,” strive to grow in love with a good man. Falling in love usually entails you blindly loving that man & wanting to throw caution to the wind because you’re so in love. Be a little more practical with it. Take your time getting to know him. You may not be crazy about him at first but that’s a good sign you’re not romanticizing him.
2. Marry an ambitious, hard working man. How much income he makes is up to you and your standards. The main thing that matters is 1. How he handles the money he does make & 2. His work ethic.
You want a man that thinks smart about work & money regardless of how much money he makes. He could lose it all but an ambitious, smart & hard working man knows how to go get it again.
3. Marry a man that doesn’t believe a woman should be the one doing all the domestic labor. That gets old fast. That’s his home too and he should want to partake in its upkeep. Not only that, he shouldn’t want to see you stressed, overworked and tired from doing it all alone.
"My husband cleans and so do I. don’t feel like cooking.? He may cook or we order out."
4. Yall need your own spaces!!
If you’re able to, have a home where you both have your own rooms/spaces. Have your own bathroom too if you can.
It really keeps the peace and flow in our home! still have a master bedroom we both sleep in but have special spaces as well.
And have a king size bed or bigger for more sleeping space!
I am an attention seeker lol I love all the attention but not all the time definitely not when everyone is staring at me only from the people I’m comfortable with. I didn’t get a lot of attention growing up, the only person who paid attention to me was my mother but she was also really busy so that left me alone with all of my books. I didn’t have many toys I hated them, I had imaginary friends instead and I would talk out loud to them uhm yeah I’ve always been insane. I grew out of having imaginary friends when I became a teenager. ( wow what a tragic upbringing)
I am really ocd with my routine. I didn’t think about it until someone point it out they ask what I am doing at an exact time on a specific day and I was able to tell them and they said is there any way you could cancel that? I started to panic and said no! Like don’t bother me on Sundays I have meetings, I have to wash my hair and do all my treatments, meal prep and put my laundry away. On Monday afternoon no! I’m busy I go to the gym that’s my favorite leg day lol when I use dumbbells only and the cable machine.
I love applying lip glosses, I apply it every 2.5 seconds! and that's alright. I am the type of girl who will apply lip gloss right before I lift weights at the gym.
I am just different. For the longest time I tried to be like everyone else but now I've accepted it, and it doesn't hurt anymore to be left on the sideline or to not be invited (they know I am not coming)
I still love pink; I thought that I grew out of that color but apparently, I still love it or rather the little girl in me still raves about it lol because my phone is pink and the keyboard at my job is pink well practically my whole desk is pink! it looks like a unicorn puked on it lo
One advice I would give myself and anyone else who reads my blog is to always be yourself ! We are all doing the best we can, hiding who you really are for the sake of being liked is not honorable at all.
You don’t have to impress anyone! I think we forget that the people who are meant to be in our lives aren’t expecting us to be perfect. The fact that you are who you are is enough ! For the longest time I’ve struggled with this. I always thought I had to be perfect to find the love of my life but all the people who loved me mostly saw me at my worst but they still chose to love me! Love is not about being perfect it’s about being flawed but yet still beautiful!
If you love something don’t hide that ! Love it proudly and you will attract people who love that same thing.
I honestly hate the holidays; No I am not a grinch if I know what that means because I don't watch Christmas movies aside from home alone (that's a cult classic I watch it anytime of the year) I just hate being alone. Seeing everyone with their families, being happy together... I just feel lonely. It does say people commit more suicide between the month of November-January and I get it. No, I don't want to die! I'll be fine this is just a temporary feeling
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