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2018-03-22T02:51:50+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 22 Mars 2018 à 02:51 AM

Don't come back for me after you left me.

Don't ask about me if you let me get away.

Don't say I miss you when all this time you could've had me but you did nothing.

Don't say that I am treating you like a stranger because all those years I've known you but you never let me in.

Don't ask me about my life now because you don't get to talk to me anymore.

Don't follow my social media because all these times you had it you never liked one of my post.

Don't talk about me expecting an answer from me because you will never hear anything from me again.

Don't act like you know me because you have no idea who I am now.

Don't say that I didn't warn you because I gave you a chance but you simply chose to let it pass.

I'm not one to be put on pause.

I am one time in a lifetime.

I am the first breath you take in the morning not the last.

I am the one you never thought I was simply because you were blinded.

I know this from the way you look at me and the way you watch me leave knowing I am never coming back.

It's done. It's over.

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2018-03-22T02:32:51+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 22 Mars 2018 à 02:32 AM

hello there,

It's been a while but I am still here. I am still living and I won't leave this blog like ever ! lol I promise.

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2018-03-16T04:37:00+01:00

Hey there.

Publié par Gaelle.R 16 Mars 2018 à 04:37 AM

Things are taking a different turn...I did not expect things to change so drastically. I feel like one day my life is a way and the next day it's just completely different. I used to hate change and In the past I used to avoid situations where I had to change things about myself or the way I live, now I don't think there's any room to choose. Things just sort of happen and sometimes I do wish I was dreaming simply because I feel like I am not quite ready yet. I guess someone never know what they are ready for until they are being put in the situation.

Maybe some of you don't know what I am talking about and it's okay...I don't like making announcements I guess what need to be said will come out at the right time. Right now I am just confused, trying to be brave, trying to keep my head held high, trying not to give up when rejections come my way, I am mad oh yes I am...I am more mad at this situation but I know it's not the worse situation I've ever been in. I have been through so much in such little time that it is crazy. I am learning more and more each day that goes by. It's hard to live a life where things are not certain, when things change any minute, when you can't even bring yourself to look at tomorrow when you have to worry about today. I don't have any problem with the future and sometimes I even think that It's very promising.

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2018-03-07T05:30:39+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Mars 2018 à 05:30 AM

In your eyes I could see how much you've changed,

I could see how much you were willing to hurt me just because you were hurting.

I tried to make excuses for you saying you are not acting like yourself,

saying you're going through a lot but I couldn't see how much you were changing.

You are no longer the same and I know that for sure.

You haven't been yourself for quite some times now.

You're saying that you start to change now but to me you haven't been yourself in a while.

I forgot who you are and your action is repetitive.

you say one thing but do another.

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2018-03-06T05:59:22+01:00

how can you?

Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Mars 2018 à 05:59 AM

I wonder how can someone so nice, someone whom I trusted with my deepest secret would turn against me and act like everything is fine and that they are suppose to do it. How can someone I stood for would do something so cruel to me ? they can see that they only see what they did for me forgetting what we had... How I gave them my trust. I knew not to give my trust to anyone and to be honest I am not shocked but I just never expected that from you. You are an hypocrite that's what you are. You look at me say one thing and turn to the world and say another...making me look bad. But I don't care what they think of me. I don't care what anyone think of me. I know who I am, I know what I want and I will keep fighting for it. That determination will never die what you did only push me to do better and to be stronger so thank you.

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2018-03-06T05:51:40+01:00

full moon.

Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Mars 2018 à 05:51 AM

Empty promises,

sad hellos, happiest goodbye.

I am realizing how much I want to leave you.

How much I hate this.

I don't even know if we're fighting or arguing.

What are we doing?

why are we staying in this and forcing it to work?

you making me do all the bad things and I still can't believe because you were suppose to be the good one.

How can you be so cruel when you appear so nice?

how are you so selfish when you calling me selfish?

making me doubt myself...

got me questioning every step I'm making all because you told me I will never make it.

If I wasn't this passionate about what I wanted you would've make me leave my dream behind and follow you.

You no longer have my heart, you no longer have my mind nor my full attention.

You are no longer part of my priorities.

I'm letting you go.

I've already let you go,

today on this full moon I know for sure that you no longer reside in my heart.

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2018-03-01T04:06:45+01:00

the fear of being alone.

Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Mars 2018 à 04:06 AM

hey there, My laptop is been acting up and i've only had it for about 2 years. I don't feel like buying a whole new different laptop right now maybe next month well today is the last day in this month but we'll see. If you don't see me just know my laptop is giving up on me. the fear of being alone? well to be honest being alone is not much of a problem for me because being alone doesn't make me feel lonely. Missing someone is worse. I think I work best alone and I am well aware of it. I think better when I'm alone. I need to be alone to make an important decision if there's too many people around me I'm going to feel tempted to let them help me make that decision and I know that I might regret it later. I am an introvert I like being alone and I don't mind it at all. About other people. I think some people love being surrounded by other people around them and when they are alone they feel sad almost as if having people around them boost their energy those are extrovert. some people hate being alone so much that they allow toxic people in their life without even realizing and those people use them. Honestly I don't see what's wrong with being alone but feeling lonely is different. when someone is feeling lonely it usually means that they want someone or something and usually they know what it is. Notice how when you start liking someone you suddenly start to feel lonely well it's because you want to be around that person and when you can't you just feel lonely.

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