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2016-07-28T03:49:43+02:00

what is one thing you like to do?

Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Juillet 2016 à 03:49 AM

well if i were to answer that question i'll say aside from writing reading is one thing i love but i also like listening to music like i am doing right now...but really i love meeting new people talking to them and getting to know them it educates me and i love to know something about someone i never met before there's something exciting about it. It is fun talking to the people you usually talk to but talking to someone new sort of makes you feel that spark like wow i just meet someone amazing then after... the spark is gone right? or not...some people stay amazing throughout the whole time you know them and get used to them that is something i admire, those people stay real because they were not fake in the beginning, you always get that same vibe since day one. They don't change to become someone new or stop talking to you. I admit i have met someone in the beginning it was all spark and everything then it was gone like in a split of seconds and i changed immediately i didn't mean to but i just could not take it because i hate to lie and to pretend. I could have said something, i guess. I did not i just stay quiet and move on i cannot be straight about these things. Telling someone well i thought you were different i was too high on expectation and you are not who i thought you were is not my cup of tea. So i moved on. I still think about these people i do not hate them i just have a bad feeling either about them or about myself for not saying anything. I am not proud of it i would hate it if someone did that to me but that is how i deal.

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2016-07-25T04:53:13+02:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Juillet 2016 à 04:53 AM

How many irrational decisions ? how much can you take ? you will make bad decisions and you will need to learn from it

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2016-07-20T04:07:18+02:00

attention.

Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Juillet 2016 à 04:07 AM

some people can't stay without their friends or someone around them, they want to be part of the crowd. I wouldn't know how that feels like because i have never wanted to be part of the crowd. It is not for me. I hate to be where everyone is you will find me there sometimes because that is where i'm supposed to be but my mind is not there and i am not enjoying it. What do you like? do you like being in the crowd or somewhere having deep conversation with someone who matters to you? that is what i like. I hate to be in the crowd because i feel like i am missing out on something that i really care bout and i would really want to be doing it then to act like i'm having fun. I rather stay alone than to pretend like i am having fun with people whom i don't know and whom i don't trust... the reason why i don't trust many people is personal and i cannot talk about it here. I am sorry if you love attention because i hate it. You should not judge me for voicing out my opinion just like i won't judge you for yours.

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2016-07-14T14:45:30+02:00

love actually

Publié par Gaelle.R 14 Juillet 2016 à 02:45 PM

Nowadays it is hard to find love and for a nice girl to be taken seriously she would have to give up something. And so she thought. We are blinded by the fact that someone can actually find the love that he or she deserves. Throughout my life i am sad to say that i have not met a boy who is willing to love a girl without getting anything in return. These boys will do anything to prove to their friends how based on their term “they got the juice” and us girls we are supposed to play along by giving in. If we decide to hold back by not engaging in anything that would break what we value the most then we are called “stuck up” and the girl who cannot have fun. So many girls have gone down the road of no return by leading a life like the boys. We try to have many relationship at a time saying that we do not care and we can act like the boys but at the end of the day we are found curled up on our beds crying. We were not made to be like the boys. They can say to a girl that they love her just to gain something but us girls we can try but we will regret it someday. We have so much to lose. I met some nice girls who turned out to be different after their first relationship and who’s fault is that? You can say that it is our fault for being so gullible and for giving them what they want. In 2016 a new term came out “the fuckboys” the type of guy who will promise you anything to have sex with you. They will talk about what they’ve done to that girl and laugh it off with their friends who in the end call her a slut. Not knowing she was intentionally giving away a part of her to a guy no a boy who she thought she loved. All i see these days are boys, i do not see any men who deserve a nice girl. There might still be nice guys but some girls have ruin it for some. When you were born, you were so innocent and you did not know how much the real world hurts and how much pain you will have to go through before you learn. Which brings me to those girls they are calling a “hoe” these terms are a disgrace to our next generation. What do you tell a 10 years old girl when she ask what does a hoe mean? But that is what it all comes down to. Do you tell her it is someone who have sex with a lot of people? No one was born with the intention of hurting other people or of taking advantage of others. Sadly but true our upbringing can shape who we will become. For those girls who will give up their body to feel loved they were not born this way. They want to feel loved and somehow they were thought that to feel loved there is a price to pay and so they keep it in mind. Now their body is their price. Perhaps they have a nice family, big house, enormous family but do they feel love do you know how lonely she feels at times? But she does not know that love does not have a price. She is willing to do the most repellent thing to make herself loved. That boy she is with is just taking advantage of her asking her for more and in the end he end up leaving her on the sidewalk in the cold. She just wanted to be loved and she thought it was special with him. Now she is broken asking what did she do to deserve this...in my opinion she done nothing and that is the problem. I admit not everyone is strong enough to stay alone waiting for the right one at the right time when everyone else seems happy and having “the perfect relationship” but all she had to was loving herself enough to know that she does not have to settle for less than she deserves. In the beginning of the relationship with that former boy somewhere inside she might have known how foolish she would have to be to get what she wants but she went for it anyway. Sometimes she even think that he will change and that there is something good in him that he does not know about. When you see her crying and you knew from the beginning what was going to happen and somehow manage to tell her the outcomes but of course she did not listen to you. What do you do ? do you tell her i told you so? Before you answer think about what you would have done if you were in her shoes. Would you have told her she is stupid for playing along or would you be compassionate. I do not have many friends and i am not ashamed to say that i am happier that way but let say if one of my 2 to 3 friends had something like that happened to them...here’s what i would do. Before i talk to her i would offer her my shoulder to cry on and i would softly stroke her hair because trust me there is nothing more comforting than to hold a girl while she is crying(it makes her feel safe) I would have to mean it because that will only ruin the moment. I will tell her to stop crying and that she just learn something about life. I'll say You cannot trust everyone little girl ! which will make her laugh because i am the little one between my friends...no time to joke. I would tell her he did not deserve her if he was not able to see what i see then he is blind. I will tell her how amazing she is i would give her an example to back me up. I will tell her that one day she will find the right one who will stay by her side and will hold her like i am holding her at the moment. But she needs to take some time off of the dating market. She needs to date herself now by learning about herself, accepting herself and by living life as it is without waiting for anything from anyone. She needs to learn how to be alone and to see for herself the positive things about herself. If she cannot see how wonderful she is no one else will make her believe it. She needs to love herself before she allows anyone else to love her. Many girls actually believe that no guy will love them if they do not try to get close to them by having sex forgetting that sex is not the closest feeling there is in a relationship it can also breaks them apart. Some will agree that sex is the best thing they have with their significant other. What about quality time? Does it always have to mean undressing the other to have a good time? Why can we just talk no boy ever says that. If you are a girl and you hear that from a “boy” then he is not a boy because honey you have found yourself a man. If he does not require sex as the only thing fun in the relationship then he loves you. Guys i know these days will not waste time to hit it as soon as possible which makes them fuckboys. It is a very popular term this year and sadly it applies to a lot of boys in high school, college. Now you may be wondering where will i find the right one? Well actually it is nowhere because the right one finds you and you do not have to look for them because they are right there in front of you. It is not easy to be a girl and on top of it to have a strong opinion about your beliefs. Girls are not been taking seriously for most we are just a piece of ass and pair of boobs. No one really care that we may have an opinion when we have a pretty face or blond. May i remind you that blonds are not necessarily dumb ! and all black girls who have a big butt is not necessarily a stripper or a hoe. You do not really know someone unless you have long conversations with them to figure out where they might fit in this wagon we call society. Sometimes you might think you know someone but in the end they turned out to be a complete different person than who they appeared to be.

From a girl speaking her mind.

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2016-07-11T02:22:18+02:00

Me myself and I

Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Juillet 2016 à 02:22 AM

There are some things that you need to do alone. Like getting a hold of your life. No one else can tell you how to live it. You should prepare yourself and learn how. You will make mistakes. You will have to choose. You will be hated...despite it all you will need to know where you stand in all of this. I am probably the last person to tell you about life or how to live it and it's not what i came here to do. So far my life has been real. I got love in my heart and hate for no reason. I put my emotions on hold keep going because i need to and you do too. Some people say i'm strong and some say i'm weak. But i know where i stand and i know who to believe and i know who to avoid. I know some things, i don't know everything. I act like a child sometimes doesn't mean i am not an adult. I got issues, problems by the fact we all do. At the end of the day it's us and our own demons. What do you do with them? do you give in? do you tell them to leave you alone? me i just came here or i get a piece of paper when it gets too personal and i need to write some names down because I need to. Being a writer i learn some people will recognize my gift while others will doubt my potential to bring me down. Some people will hate for no reason and i need to know not to take it personal. I am still learning. You cannot let them take over. For a reason or another...at the end of the day everything seems to play again in our mind.

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2016-07-08T05:51:13+02:00

used to

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Juillet 2016 à 05:51 AM

I would put my head down

cry and hold it in for a while... but not anymore . I changed i have came to love who i have become despite all of my flaws some might say that i'm blinded for not seeing how many mistakes i have made so far well i'm just going to tell them that i'm only getting started and i am still learning. I don't want to grow old. I want to grow as a child, as a bird that left its feather behind in the nest. I am free and i will be...i like the way the morning sound. The way the train moves me toward the day to a fresh start as the coffee brew... i don't even like coffee but when i feel happy everything taste good so now coffee is my cup of tea. I no longer cry and i wish for fewer things because i'm already getting what i want only me can stop ME. i hit the gas and everything seems closer than it was before.

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2016-07-05T17:06:57+02:00

Fireworks

Publié par Gaelle.R 5 Juillet 2016 à 05:06 PM

4th of July was amazing don't you think ? a lot of fireworks and people out there on the street. I was not out there but i was still able to see the fireworks...one of days when staying in feels great even though there's magical fireworks everywhere what matters most made me stay in. When you're looking at the fireworks don't tell me you don't feel something. It's just so beautiful and the colors are able to revive something in you it's not an everyday thing the way you feel is different from what you feel normally. I'll say life is better with fireworks but if we do it everyday then it wouldn't be that special when we do it on special occasions. for me i wouldn't mind doing it super often.

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2016-07-03T00:36:57+02:00

fake friend

Publié par Gaelle.R 3 Juillet 2016 à 12:36 AM

I talked about a few people here and some of them didn't deserved to be talked about... but i talked because here is my free zone. I don't want to hide. I have been doing that a whole lot and lately i don't want to do that anymore. Things are not so perfect right now. I am confused, lost despite all i am still happy. Let me share a story with you. I met a guy at work no not like that we've been friends ever since we first met. At least i thought we were friends. Do you know those kinds of people who are somewhat your friend, joke around with you. Sometimes the jokes get so serious and your feelings get hurt and if you are the type of person who get hurt fast then you will probably will not like someone that's messing around with your feelings like it didn't matter. I believe that he is one of the toxic people whom i wish i didn't meet. I don't hate him i just feel sorry for him. The reason why i feel sorry for him is because even though he hurts my feelings he didn't know what he was doing because he got so much pride to say sorry. I want an apology but i don't care anymore. He hurts my feelings multiple times and i would laugh it off. The thing is you don't have to do what i did. You can stop someone from hurting you before it gets out of hand. I waited too long to tell him to back off. He made me look like i was the one who did something wrong when in fact i didn't do anything wrong except protecting myself. I don't know what to do when someone is being a bully.

Answering back only backfire and i know because i have tried that.

ignoring them only makes some go on and on but some do stop

I cannot believe that some people have the guts to hurt you and look you in the eyes with pride and say you're the one who allow this to happen. He did not say it but the way he acted afterwards show me that he didn't care much. He didn't even try to talk to me about it. It was a test and he failed. He showed me that he wasn't really my friend, he doesn't really care about me or how i feel.

He claimed that he cared but really he doesn't. He showed me who he really is and that i shouldn't trust him. By the fact there are only a few people that i trust and i can count them with no hesitation.

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