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2025-01-31T12:45:11+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 31 Janvier 2025 à 12:45 PM

In my 28 years of living I am not bitter that I haven’t found love. I am still young and my heart will not age, there’s no difference if I fall in love now or when I’m 50 years old. I would still love the same if not better because with age often comes maturity. The people I thought I loved when I was 20 would never be enough for me now, they’re great people but we aren’t on the same path and that’s okay. Love is not enough for a great relationship you need compatibility, respect, consistency, communication, dedication and the mental capacity to be there for someone.

As someone who struggled with depression in the past I wouldn’t have been a great partner! I wouldn’t have the capacity to be there for them emotionally even if I wanted to and that’s why I never tried to be with anyone. One thing I love about me is that I am self conscious I know when I don’t have the capability to do something and I accept it because I am human. I know when I am not right mentally and emotionally so I will take a step back to reflect until I feel better.

Now it’s a different ballgame, I am happier and I am not depressed at all thank God. I have things to work on but my mental health is not bad at all and I am grateful for that because it’s been really tough in the past.

If I am in a relationship with someone and I am having a bad day or I am upset about something that has nothing to do with the person I won’t bring that in the relationship. I will tell him what’s going on because I won’t let him be blindsided but I won’t take it out on him. I would take a step back and come back when I’m fine. I don’t like to bring bad energy, I want to make people smile and happy because I know what it feels like to be sad. I don’t want to make my man sad, I want to bring him joy.

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2025-01-31T12:10:40+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 31 Janvier 2025 à 12:10 PM

Yesterday mark 1 year since my dad’s death and I took the day off to reflect on it. I am still reflecting as I am off today as well. I didn’t cry but I felt so uneasy because I kept replaying that awful day in my head. It still feels like a dream, for months I would play one of the voicemail he sent me saying I love you. I would cry when I hear his voice because I knew what he was going through and I wasn’t there for him.

I think the guilt that I felt after his passing held me back from a lot of things. For example I hated myself to the point where I didn’t think I deserved any attention or anytime good. I don’t feel that way anymore but it took me some time. Grieving the death of a parent is hard, I tried therapy but that didn’t help. I felt like the old man was flirting with me, I didn’t like his style at all. He was a private therapist and I was paying him! Ugh so I stopped going to him and just went to the gym. That was the best decision I’ve made in my whole entire pathetic life lol. Working out has changed me not only does it help with my recurring depression by balancing the chemicals in my brain but it made me stronger, more confident and feel more beautiful. Working out truly helped me grieve his death, I would push myself so hard on the days where I have a hard day and reward myself with more muscles. Doing the things I love truly helped even when I don’t have the interest I try to enjoy one thing at a time. For example besides working out I would: play video games, read a book, listening to music and write. Sometimes I would hate one and prefer the other so I would just do that. Grieving takes time, one day you may be fine and the next day you may be crying at a grocery store especially after I saw a girl with her dad.

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2025-01-31T11:58:36+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 31 Janvier 2025 à 11:58 AM

Ucl night

My prediction about Manchester city was correct they did win 3-1 ! Ugh I’m scary lol it’s only because I watch their games and I know what to expect.

PSG won 4-1 that was a surprise! I didn’t expect that from them! but they played well and Dembele delivered a hat trick I was shook! Because at times he doesn’t shoot the correct way so his finishing is not always best but he was great on Wednesday and a goal from Barcola! I love that little man he is so dedicated and really wants to win he reminds me of Mbappé just a little bit minus the hair and the tattoos because my baby doesn’t have any of those things.

Real Madrid won 3-0 but people were criticizing Mbappé because he didn’t score and what I want to say to those people is shut up! If you can do better then sign at Real Madrid and take his place. He doesn’t always have to score to be a great player! He was implicated in one of the goals and he created danger! I hated the fact that every time he had the ball the stadium was booing him because Brest is a French league so they’re mad because he left psg ? Or are they mad he left France? Because last time I checked he never played for Brest so why the animosity? They acting like he still doesn’t play for France! He is the captain of the French team for God’s sake ugh French people can be so dumb at times! Like let the guy play. I don’t think the booing got to him but I could tell he wasn’t having a good time and he was nervous to be back in France. He’s still the best player in the world for me. Anyone who’s criticizing him clearly didn’t watch the match because he was still on fire but he just didn’t score.

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2025-01-29T16:09:42+01:00

UCL night

Publié par Gaelle.R 29 Janvier 2025 à 04:09 PM

okay last week, my predictions were wrong well not all of them because real Madrid did win except Mbappe didn't have a hat trick, he scored once but the goal was amazing! plus he did have a hat trick this weekend which was also great! I was over the moon I cancelled all my plans after the gym on Saturday to watch the match. You all know I am a die-hard fan of Mbappe lol.

Today's predictions

Manchester city vs Club Brugge: uhm what is Belgium team doing in the champions league? because when I saw Brugge I was like who? but I guess they worked hard to be qualified for the champions league but that sucks because Manchester city absolutely has to win today so they won't be dropped out of the competition. Manchester city will win in my opinion if they don't well that would be a huge problem and so embarrassing to be eliminated this early! final score Manchester city will win 3-1

PSG VS stuggart: well, Psg is on a winning spree in the champions league this year, they will win today's game too if not it will be a draw 1-1 or psg will win 2-1 will see

real Madrid vs Brest: This game is taking place in France, Brest is a ligue 1 team and Mbappe knows them very well, so I expect a great game from Kylian :) no pressure I'll still love him regardless, but Real Madrid has to win because they have a reputation to uphold. I expect real Madrid wining 2-0 or 1-0 because Brest is not too bad when they play at home (I know them well too when I used to watch PSG matches every week)

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2025-01-27T03:43:11+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Janvier 2025 à 03:43 AM

Some people have been asking me what I put in my hair to make it look so pretty? And I appreciate the compliment! I really do because there was a time I didn’t know what to do with my hair! I have really coarse hair and it shrinks a lot so for someone to come up to me to tell me how beautiful my hair is means a lot to me! I love my hair and I already know how beautiful it is because I am the one taking care of it. I do a lot of things to keep it beautiful and moisturized. At the same time I don’t really have a big routine and it’s quite simple.
one thing I have been doing a lot in the winter months is hot oil treatment before I wash my hair, that helps me keep the moisture in my hair and it also softens my hair. During those dry winter months any moisture count and hot oil treatments have been a great help. I have no real intention to put a wig on my head or to use any fake hair at the moment. This is me and that’s it for now.

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2025-01-27T01:09:05+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Janvier 2025 à 01:09 AM

If I was man I would have to date a girl who goes to the gym, there’s just something about a girl who’s fit that looks soooo sexy! That’s why I started working out. I wanted to be strong, fit and beautiful. Working out every week requires discipline, dedication and hard work. All of the things that are needed for a long lasting relationship, we all have to start somewhere and that’s what I would look at first.

As women when we get older we tend to gain weight in the wrong places. Working out is a great way to stay young, strong and healthy. When I am at the gym and I see a girl walks by with a nice body and you can clearly tell she works hard for it and she didn’t just buy it motivates me to keep working hard. Ugh I love us women who work out, if I could be friends with all the girls at my gym I would! Ugh they’re just so beautiful and they work really hard!

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2025-01-27T00:34:11+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Janvier 2025 à 12:34 AM

There’s this thing going around saying girls should be looking out for other girls and I agree because that’s what being a girl’s girl is all about meaning I should get along with all the girls around me. If it was up to me I would get along with every girl but it’s really up to them. Girls tend to be jealous, condescending and judgmental not all of them though and I can spot the real ones right away.

I am not a girls girl if that means I need to hang out with you if I know you don’t like me. If you are rude to me I will ignore your entire existence, I don’t care about who doesn’t like me. I won’t say hi to you if you’re mean to me, I will look right past you. I don’t hate you but I can sense your animosity towards me because I am an empath I don’t need you to say you don’t like me, I can feel it. For that reason I simply won’t talk to you. I don’t need a lot of friends because I don’t have a lot of energy to pass around. I am an introvert I like being alone but I do love hanging out with people I love and trust from time to time.

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2025-01-23T21:41:54+01:00

UCL NIGHT

Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Janvier 2025 à 09:41 PM

champions league night was amazing yesterday!

I got takeout and watched both games after work, I was so busy yesterday, but I made time to watch the games and boy was I surprised! My predictions were all wrong lol PSG beat Manchester city when I though Manchester city was going to win 2-0 then bam PSG scored twice to even the score in less than 15 minutes, then bam they scored twice again ending the score with 4-2! How in the world PSG won this game??? even before when they had Neymar and Mbappe PSG could not win against Manchester city. PSG was just amazing! they were unstoppable. I love PSG so much because i've connected with the players when Mbappe was there, the way that I connected with PSG I have not connected like that with Real Madrid because wherever Mbappe goes I go, but I still love PSG and he does too because he says that he watch all the games even though he's at real madrid I mean how can you not? the team is just so exciting to watch. It's never boring, Liverpool is boring to me but PSG bring that shock value, it makes you stay at the end of your sit ready to cheer them on.

Real Madrid game was amazing we got 2 goals from Rodrygo, 1 funny and magical goal from Mbappe and 2 goals from Vinicius Jr. I already knew real Madrid was going to win but I wasn't sure how, but they won 4-1 which is amazing. They moved up the ladder because their games at the beginning in the champions league were not so great.

Manchester city is losing a bit of its magic, in 2023 they were unstoppable and even last year too but lately some players have been requesting to leave and Pep Guardiola the coach is stressed out. I hope they get back on track, they are not out of the champions league just yet they can still redeem themselves next Wednesday and I believe they will.

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2025-01-23T05:05:47+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Janvier 2025 à 05:05 AM

Q&A

What do you like?

Sleeping, relaxing, watching football and commenting on it, reading, picking out outfits, watching girly movies, writing, making board collages, getting pampered like getting nails and hair done, hanging out with my cats, working can be fun at times, taking cute pictures, talking to my mom and catching up with friends once in a while, doing my own hair brings me joy.

One habit you try to incorporate in your life this year?

Journaling everyday before bed just to process each day and to really get to know myself quietly away from the rest of the world and all the distractions around me. I don’t talk about men in there, it’s all about me. Because I am trying to get to know myself more to really understand what I want in life. There’s no gossip in there, no drama just personal things I might never say out loud.

What are your fitness goals?

I want to lose more belly fat, smaller waist (I’m almost there) nice and toned body and more muscles. To be healthy overall, to be able to run for 5 minutes straight without passing out. To lift my body weight in a session, I can lift up to 110lbs during deadlift and hip thrust. I don’t really check my weight because I have muscles now and that add to the number on the scale, I don’t worry about that because I’d rather lose inches which is body fat than lose muscles

Who’s your favorite cat between Archie and Pixie?

I answer this every time, but I had Archie first and he made me really happy when I got him. I was so depressed and alone when I got him as soon as I got him I became happier. I looked forward to coming home, he would follow me to my room every time i come home and take naps with me. Then I got Pixie manly because I felt like Archie was sad and alone, he didn’t appreciate that I brought another cat home but Pixie made me and Archie even more happy. Pixie is soooo funny! So cute! So weird! So childlike kind of like me and that’s why I love him. Pixie made both me and Archie happier. I love both of my cats just the same they make me happy.

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2025-01-22T19:05:49+01:00

UCL NIGHT

Publié par Gaelle.R 22 Janvier 2025 à 07:05 PM

Today all my favorite teams are playing! ugh and they're playing at the same time which sucks because I won't be watching the games live but my predic for the games are below:

PSG VS MANCHESTER CITY: the winner for today will be Manchester city even if I want PSG to win but let's see because I don't see how PSG is going to win with Haaland starting to be good again at Manchester city. I hope Barcola plays well today at PSG actually I hope the whole team play well because they deserve to win at least once but will they win? uhm I don't think so

REAL MADRID VS WHOEVER: I am not familiar with who they are playing against, and I don't care to know either but all I know is that Real Madrid will win, and I will hopefully get a hattrick from Mbappe and this one won't be offside. La liga is the worse they always give Mbappe offsides ugh even if he wasn't offside, they wait until he celebrates the goal to then say oops it was offside. He has 8 offside goals already!! and 14 goals that counts at real Madrid this season which is amazing. My baby is just so good and talented.... ugh he's so cute.

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