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missed opportunities,
overcompensating for an innaccesible love.
undivided attention,
to an unrequited love.
unwavering but forgotten,
uncared for but loved from afar.
wretched soul, pitiful love, tragic romance.
2025-03-31T20:32:49+02:00
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2025-03-31T19:07:13+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
Stop looking at me with those eyes,
we both know we don't want the same thing.
stop pretending when you're with me,
we both know it means nothing.
stop looking for me,
we both know you don't really care.
stop kissing me as if you love me,
we both know you only love her.
your words, your kiss, your touch mean nothing.
2025-03-31T19:02:25+02:00
strange?
One thing I realize about myself today is that I get really calm when I am panicking! My voice gets even softer, sweet and I am very accommodating. But there's a war raging inside my brain! I am panicking inside but my demeanor is very calm and sweet. I don't shout; I don't even move fast because when I panic it usually means there's not much else I can do because I am already deep in the shits...I just accept my fate at this point.
2025-03-30T23:59:17+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
The reason why I’m single is because I’m too introverted. It’s not a joke! When I go out I always find men paying attention to me, staring at me even though I don’t know what they are thinking but they are staring! But aside from little outings here and there I never go out! I’m always home with my books, cats and video games or I’m at the gym. I get approached a lot at the gym but I don’t want none of those men there!
When I go out like at a party or somewhere fancy where I would dress up I always find one person who’s ready to give me his number but I’m always running away because I don’t want it lol
And when I like a man I treat him so bad to the point where he thinks I hate him! Or I don’t talk to him but he’s on my mind 24/7!
I’m so weird. I give up dating. I threw in the towel last year lol.
2025-03-30T05:50:59+02:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
When I’m with you, times fly.
Everything feels like a dream in your presence.
Your touch, your lips and when our eyes meet time stop to allow us to savor one stolen moment in eternity.
You make me giddy.
You make me feel beautiful.
Everything you do is magical.
You are everything I ever wanted.
No one can take away my love for you, not time and not another man for after you there’s no other.
Please take my forever and give me a lifetime of happiness with true love.
2025-03-27T20:58:05+01:00
Girls who claim to only like having guy friends: is it that simple?
when a girl claim she likes to only have guy friends I feel sorry for her, there's something different about having a great woman friend that a guy will never be able to give her. Guys are problem solvers and us women we are emotional beings, sometimes we don't want to hear solutions we want to vent and cry. A woman friend may cry with you and be there for you and her love is pure but some men who are friends with you may be thinking about getting into your pants.
Having only guy friends is dangerous because as a girl you don't have any real genuine friend, yes you may argue my boys love me they will die for me but once they get a girlfriend, you're no longer a priority. You think his girlfriend will let him hang out with you all the time? I know I wouldn't. Vice versa you think your boyfriend will let you hang out with the boys all the time? yeah, I don't think so. Having same sex friends build stronger connection and a deeper bond, there are some things you can't discuss with a guy; you can discuss emotional stuff but it's very rare that you feel emotionally understood unless that man is gay.
Girls who seek only male friends often love to be validated by men, perhaps their father didn't pay attention to them. They say they are trying to avoid drama with girls, but not all girls love drama! just pick your friends because that's what I do. I take my time to pick all my friends, and I watch very closely if their personalities match mine.
in my opinion a girl who only likes male friends is a red flag.
2025-03-26T14:43:34+01:00
the art of a routine.
I finally cracked the code!
I have so many things that I want to do throughout the day that there isn't enough time for me to do all of them after work. But I found a way around it, my saying is " a little is better than nothing at all".
For instance, after work, I have to rest a little, have a snack then go to the gym, cook dinner then rest a little, journal, read and watch some tv? there's not much time because my bedtime is before 11pm and I spend at least 2 hours at the gym. I used to skip journaling and reading just to watch TV, but I realized I was struggling with my vocabulary a lot more when I am speaking. when you don't read, you forget a lot of words and when you are speaking the words you are looking for may not always come up if you don't take some to figure what you want to say without using replacement words such as "like, thingy.." I need to read more to learn more descriptive words to use when I am speaking. when I am writing it's easier because I have time to think and look up the words I am looking for either online or in a dictionary. It should not be this hard for me to speak clearly when I already know so many words! but because I wasn't reading enough my brain was lazy! reading is a workout for your brain, it enriches your vocabulary. Lately I have been reading every night and it's been tough even though I love reading! because my routine was watching TV until it's time for bed and that's not good or productive at all. Journaling was also hard for me, but I have been journaling religiously every night since mid-january! now it's easier and my journal is almost full soon enough I will be buying a new journal. My journals have not been full in years, I always had 10-20 blank pages left at the end of the year because I love getting a new journal every new year. This year I will know what I did each day and what happened on what day, I love to go back and look how much I've grown or change :)
Having a routine that helps me with my journaling and my reading really makes me really happy. At first, I prioritize writing just 1 page in my journal but now I can write as many pages as I want! but as long as I write at least 1 page I've accomplish more than enough. Your routine should be small, don't give yourself a big task but rather start small because a little goes a long way. Remember that at first you weren't doing it at all so doing just a little bit is better than nothing!
2025-03-25T18:10:22+01:00
more mental than physical
If I came on here and said I am not working out to have a nice body that would be a lie, but that's not all! it really does help with my mental health. When I skip the gym, I get really sad, and I have that uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach that I cannot shake until I get back in the gym again. when I am lifting weights and I am challenging myself I can literally feel myself get happier, I can feel my self-esteem rising! lifting heavier weights and feeling the burn while you are mentally telling yourself that you can do it build your inner strength you feel powerful after you lift something that was challenging. The muscles that you reward yourself with is the best thing in the world! better than anything else I've experienced.
The first time I saw my legs muscles or the deep line in my back along with some muscles forming I was over the moon because I've accomplished so much under 1 year in the gym! My body really transformed itself. I really don't understand why people spend thousands of dollars to get their bodies done when you can eat right and work out consistently, you will be happier trust me, and you will be healthier. when someone puts silicones in their body or whatever they use to fill up a specific area in the body there will be consequences and side effects. Most people want immediate results, and it doesn't work like that when you work out. It takes 6 months to see some results and up to years to see significant results, it all depends on how much protein you consume a day and how much you exercise during the week.
2025-03-21T01:33:31+01:00
Publié depuis Eklablog
I think the biggest misconception about me is that my life is boring. I can assure you it’s not! Every day it’s something.
2025-03-18T17:42:04+01:00
book of the month and podcast
Book of the month is Gone by Michael Grant; I will drop a podcast episode to review the book and rate it from a scale of 1-10.
It will be a fun podcast I am so excited to start reading this book tonight, I already have the ebook version, but I am picking up a copy at my local library later today. I love a physical copy of the book more than the electronic version, but I'd like to have both just in case I don't access to the physical copy. I will do more book reviews if anything else on my podcast.