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2018-02-23T17:51:04+01:00

so far...

Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Février 2018 à 05:51 PM

I have been busy lately working on some new things and still trying to find myself... aren't we all? I wonder what the world would be like if we already have ourselves all figured out. what else could we do? just live and live. I think It's exciting to find yourself and trying new things.

what do I wanna talk about?

The reason why I have been out lately is mainly because I didn't have any interesting topic to talk about and I would hate to come here and put some boring content. When I find myself sinking or drifting away I stay off this blog and social media. I think it's draining emotionally to always be active on social media. I promise myself that I am going to live life in the moment and let life be what it is instead of capturing it with a camera an posting it with a dumb caption that doesn't even describe what I feel. I wish I could have everyone that I love and care about always near me so I wouldn't have to text them or facetime them...I love direct connection with someone I don't like texting anymore. The reason why I don't like texting is because...

there's always mixed signals,
the person takes too long to reply, I don't get the answer right away or the way I want to hear it
I can't go back and forth with the person if the person takes too long to reply so I just move on to the next subject.
I don't want to change the subject but because we are going to spend hours on one question I rather stop talking about it.

whereas if I was talking to someone face to face there's face expression and faster response. I can actually go back and forth with the person not arguing but like a discussion. I used to love texting when I was younger because I was in middle school and no one had nothing to do back then so we just glued to our phones and text back quick. Now there's so much to do that I don't even bother texting some people especially if I have a crush on that person. It's too much and I just don't like texting that person but I like texting my friends don't matter how long I wait I can call them, double text without thinking but with your crush you're trying not to look desperate and being careful ruin the fun. I'm one to double text, call right away and facetime when I don't understand what you mean lol because for some reason I need to see your face to get what you mean.

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2018-02-20T05:33:59+01:00

My turn.

Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Février 2018 à 05:33 AM

Hello there,

I have been in the clouds lately and I have been thinking a lot... I was so focus on that special thing that I forgot about my surrounding. I hope that everything works out and that I get that special thing.

Let's get to it.

I think everyone is living life their own way and I have my own ways too. sometimes we may think we working in vain or that the process takes too long but the best things come to those who work hard not those who keeps procrastinate. I feel like I keep on working towards that same goal I had for ages but the thing is everything is happening at a slow pace. I am grateful that I am moving forward even if it's just for a little bit. I think that I just need to keep climbing and eventually I will get on top of the mountain. It may not be my turn right now but I know for sure my time will come, it always has. I am independent and I work to get what I want I don't like it when someone is giving me stuff I like to think that I work for it. some people did not think that I would be where I am today It's not my problem but I cannot help but think if they didn't see it coming and to be honest I didn't see it either imagine how many things are about to come in the future ! Last year around this time I was struggling in so many levels but this year I don't have those same struggles anymore. I am grateful that all those problems are behind me and I thank God for that. I am moving forward and you are too. Don't ever look back and dwell on the past, the only time you need to look back is to learn a lesson and to see how far you've come. Don't let other people intimidate you telling you that you're never going to make it. You will make it if you believe in it constantly and if you keep putting that work.

Never ever give up you hear me? no matter what keep fighting and believe in yourself.

I believe in you.

night night...

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2018-02-20T05:24:09+01:00

poetry

Publié par Gaelle.R 20 Février 2018 à 05:24 AM

To me poetry is something so deep, it is suppose to make me feel and I don't mind if I look vulnerable because naturally I love being in control but writing poetry make me lose all control. It's just me and my feelings or whatever I am going through at the moment. Poetry is not always about love to me and I've started writing it at a very young age it wasn't always about love but when I did write about love for the very first time I don't think I knew what it was.

Now when I am writing about love it comes from a deep place, one that I don't mind sharing with whoever wants to hear.Love is a beautiful thing and I am happy that I found love and have enough to give in return...

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2018-02-16T05:35:03+01:00

LOVE.

Publié par Gaelle.R 16 Février 2018 à 05:35 AM

we shared something so deep,

when I look into your eyes I swear I could see the stars.

You are the one I live for,

the reason I am breathing here today.

You say I'm all yours but would you live for me If I die?

I've never been here before.

I've never felt that way.

I am scared.

I am thinking about giving it all.

But I didn't know it would hurt this bad.

Never knew this pain would break me.

All these times when I should be jumping with joy I am sad thinking about how much power you have over me.

I never knew it would kill me to see you have all of me.

If I lose you i'm afraid that I would lose myself.

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2018-02-06T02:22:02+01:00

validation.

Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Février 2018 à 02:22 AM

Hey there,

I think I love the weather today it's not too cold and I love it. I just realize that I only like winter during the month of December after that I don't really care. I like summer better. I used to love winter and the snow but now I'm over it.

Let's get to it...

Have you ever bought something for the first time and you like what you bought i'm assuming that's why you bought it, but then you see your friends and you ask them what they think and if they like it but they said no it looks hideous. Now you look at yourself in the mirror wondering how in the world could you possibly love something so ugly? But what you don't think about is how excited you were when you bought it because you loved it then but now you suddenly hate it cause your friends find it hideous. why did you change your mind? Now I know how upsetting it is if someone doesn't like your style or what you like but there is no need for you to change your style just to accommodate theirs. You are unique on your own way and it is okay to love something your friends hate because we don't need to have the same interest on everything. Why do we need this constant urge to be love by other people when we can literally love ourselves. No one can ever love you the way you love yourself, no one can take care of you better than the way you take care of yourself. You know yourself believe it or not you know enough about yourself to know what you like and by knowing what you like you can find out what you don't like. You know what you can tolerate and you know what you cannot bare. So why leave yourself at the feet of someone else to love you. You know exactly what I am talking about, you want to be love so much that you allow yourself to be in relationship you don't even want to be in only because you don't want to end up alone. What's wrong with being alone? aren't you enough? you should love your company more before you seek others. Being by yourself will only help you find out more about yourself and about what you need to know before you let someone else in. Don't always rush to let someone in only to realize that you would rather be alone. Put that in your mind that you are fine the way you are and you don't need anyone to tell you that. You are uniquely beautiful and you shouldn't let anyone else tells you different. I love all of you for supporting me and the least I could do is to let you know how amazing you are. Sometimes I wish someone else had a blog like me out there so I could read these things to myself. It's all about self love and it has nothing to do with being conceited.

we focus so much on other people and on what they have to say about us that we even forget about ourselves in the process. when was the last time you last checked in with yourself and I am not talking about doing your makeup in front of the mirror because you were trying to look "appealing" nothing wrong with that I use my concealer and my mascara from time to time and I have nothing against make up I think it's art. But checking in with yourself is not doing your make up but rather sitting by yourself and being on your own presence taking a deep breath and feeling everything on your body. Feeling the lashes on your eyes, the hairs on your eyebrows and feeling your nose...realizing YOU, feeling YOU. I realize that i've never done that and since I've started doing it recently I start to feel more calm.

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2018-02-04T04:55:11+01:00

Publié depuis Eklablog

Publié par Gaelle.R 4 Février 2018 à 04:55 AM

I want to be the one next to you as the sun comes and you open up your eyes to a new day,

I want to be the first person you call when something goes right and I want to be the only one you call when things are bad.

I want to be a shield all over you so nothing bad would happen to you.

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2018-02-01T00:30:59+01:00

M.I.A

Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Février 2018 à 12:30 AM

hello,

It seems like I've been gone for a while only because my computer was acting up and I only feel comfortable blogging on my own computer at home. I like the privacy of me coming with new found ideas as I seat on my bed with my laptop on my lap which is bad for guys ( I don't recommend any guy to put a laptop on their lap because it's detrimental to their reproductive organs ). I actually love my privacy when I write I feel like It's just me with the keyboard or just me with a pen and paper. I am back and I have been thinking about a lot of things while I've been gone. When wasn't I thinking about new ideas? I can't recall. I feel like I overthink which is bad I know and there comes the stress. Today is the last day of January and I am so happy because this month have been so long and a lot has happened. I was an emotional wreck the beginning of the month I wasn't feeling well at all. I can say that the first day of January came with a lot problems for me I was emotionally unstable. If you know me well you will know that despite everything I will never give up I will keep fighting even when everyone else give up and I like that about myself. Even after being depressed because I don't get sad it's more than that it's unhealthy I know but we all deal with things our own ways. My ways may seem wrong to many but to me it's my creative side. I cannot stand people judging someone else without knowing what they've been through. I am not saying that It is okay to be the victim I am tired of that too. Stop being the victim and always talking about how it's because of someone or something that's why you the way you are. Stop letting other people control you. You've been giving this life to make something out of it and you should never let anyone take that away from you. You have the freedom to chose who you want to be and you have the right to follow your dreams because that's who you are and that's what made you. Never give up even if you fail. Failure is not such a bad thing that's where all the knowledge comes from that's where you gain enough experience about what you didn't know. I would rather fail thousands of times just to become successful because I will know more each time I fail because the more I fail the wiser I become.

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