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2015-10-31T03:04:11+01:00

Halloween

Publié par Gaelle.R 31 Octobre 2015 à 03:04 AM

Hi ! how was your day? my day was amazing I did a few things that made me happy that by the end of the day I was sad.It's now the time where many of you are celebrating Halloween, do you celebrate it? most of you are coming out in costumes and doing crazy things just for fun. I don't know why we do these things, But it looks fun on the outside. I don't celebrate halloween but I like to see the costumes maybe I could still dress myself as a cat anytime of the year. Not only on halloween but that's what I think some of you love halloween and I cannot tell you otherwise. I'm not here to tell you what you can and cannot do. Truth is we all have a choice and I have the choice not to celebrate halloween while deep down I love the idea of dressing myself as a cat. All of us have fantasies and this is one of my crazy ones. What do you want to be? (not only on halloween but deep down) if you say a career I will not judge you. We all want something and you don't have to tell me what that is. But why do you believe in halloween? the whole idea seem fake. Why do you have to wait all year just to pretend to be someone else? well I choose to be my own self on halloween and if you want to be spiderman, catwoman, satan (really?) anyway it's your choice and I will not say anything. It's good that you stand for something because some of you fall for anything because you don't stand for anything. I hope you keep your voice loud because other people are trying to be heard too. You're not the only one trying hard out here. Tomorrow many of you will come out in your costume and you will act like that person...is it fun? I have enough trouble acting as myself how do you do other people? or maybe you don't really try to be like someone else because you cannot. You are yourself and everyone else are themselves. Let's be honest halloween might be fun but most of us don't really know the whole concept. What if it was evil? have you thought about that? I have and because I could not understand what halloween stood for I told myself to stay far away from it. If I don't know the meaning of something I will not follow it because I don't want to be following the devil. Maybe you should tell me how you really feel about it because I like other people's opinion. If you want to share anything with me feel free to do so I'm a very open minded person. even though I look though on the outside don't be afraid to tell me what you think. Let me tell you something, before I could not find out who I wanted to be and I think many of you struggle with this. If you are in college and you don''t really know your major then you know what i'm talking about. Well I thought I would just grow into someone just like that.I thought I could just grow into a nurse but that is not how it works. What you want has to be build on something. What you want to be on halloween is it build on something? I'm sure it's built on a movie, book, music or anything popular. Anyway have fun tomorrow and don't eat to much candy (it's bad for your teeth as you already know) *just a reminder. Good night angels...

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2015-10-30T01:13:22+01:00

Music !

Publié par Gaelle.R 30 Octobre 2015 à 01:13 AM

Hey guys ! today was a nice day in New England It hasn't been this warm in a while. Anyway we are not here to talk about the weather we have many things to talk about. First of all why don't we talk about music tonight? Well I listen to all kinds of songs hip hop, RNB, slow...everything any languages. It's a world full of many culture, I like Indian songs it's so calm and relaxing sometimes they are quite loud but in a good way. But let's talk about American music where all the rules are being broken, I still can't believe I listen to them even though I'm criticizing LOL I mean sometimes they are so catchy it's hard to get away from them. Like I appreciate Akon he has good songs many of them are suitable for young viewers or listeners. In the beginning of this year it was hard for me to find a suitable song to listen to with my 9 years old niece, she likes music (thanks to me) just kidding she just listen to every song that I have been listening to and I had to watch out. I didn't want to be a bad example I wanted to introduce her to good songs like: uncover by Zarra Larson, some Christina Perri songs but it did not take her much time for her to find out about Nicki Minaj, Drake in the end she would be like WHO THAT? WHO THAT? I'M SO FANCY there was nothing I could do. She find out about all the bad songs that I din't want her to listen to at school and she was a 4th grader! It's hard to find a song suitable these days...I wanted to enjoy music with her and we did. we had a lot of fun finding good music besides all the bad songs she had already listen to. Well enough about me and my niece let's talk about you ! You probably have different taste in music but that's fine. I like it when people introduce me to new songs. I love music I have to say every time I write here I'm always listening to music. It inspires me, does it inspire you? I bet it does. When you running and you're listening to a good song that makes you wanna move don't you love that feeling? I don't run but I dance (when no one is watching of course) anyway there are good songs. Do you ever listen to Kat Dahlia? she has a strong voice she's amazing. I listen to rap songs when I'm mad like I was listening to one when I was writing that article about what pisses me off LOL ! wow music does that kinda thing to you it makes you happy, sad, mad and it makes you want to dance even if you're not that good (like me) it's no shame. I'm sure we're good at something else. Songs are good for the brain it gives you that rush it make all the dopamine rushing in best feeling ever. I don't think I can go a day without music can you? I bet you can. I don't know when I became addicted to music...I just can't stop listening to music when i'm doing something with my hands (not with my head, maybe) I wish you could tell me what kind of song you like but if you don't want to share that's fine. I won't force anyone to comment, You know I can see if you visit (hoooo scrary) no i'm serious I know how many visitors I have everyday and you are one of them. I won't know who exactly came but I know someone did. I wish I could but I cannot. So back to music if you wanna tell me what kind of songs you like i'll be happy to know. well good night to you we'll talk more tomorrow. Peace out.

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2015-10-29T03:10:05+01:00

wanna talk about books?

Publié par Gaelle.R 29 Octobre 2015 à 03:10 AM

Hi there! how was your day? my day was fine thanks for asking ! anyway let's talk. What can we talk about today? I think we should talk about books I know many of you probably don't like to read or don't have time to do it if you're working and at school too. Well I love reading if I don't read I feel empty. I need a story to get through everything and it's so important that I read. You maybe have something you love or you have to do to get through life. Some of you love music, playing instrument (i wish i could play the piano) some of you like to pray because you find strength in God. It's varied a lot of you like different things and I am fascinated by it. I love variety of things cause I get to learn from all of you. What if we talk about books a little? well I cannot say it will be very entertaining for those of you who don't love reading but I promise it won't be boring. There are some books that I read and they do absolutely nothing for me. For example the fifty shades of grey trilogy why did I even bother reading them? no offense James but what were you thinking? and the movie is no better and I'm sorry if you had to watch it. At the time I was reading the books I was going through some hardships and the books were like an escape a bad one if you ask me. I don't recommend you to read them your mind will be deprave of all the good things your parents taught you, you will feel good while reading but when you're done you will just feel empty and ashamed that you've spent all of your time on them. Anyway some books are just bad for our mental health, they make us addicted to them and we get nothing out of them. They make us feel empty at some point and they change our values and the way we think. when I read these books i'm not inspired to write good poems, I will write but I would be slacking. My writing would look different from my usual it's like the book can corrupt my mind. I'm not saying that there aren't any good books, there are however it's rare to find them. So many new authors are coming out and most of the time they write about anything that can sell. The writing industry became like a business you just have to write anything that could sell and people will get addicted so you could keep them buying more. Where are the passion in all this? you know if i would have to publish a book in this condition I would rather write them for my entourage or the people around me. I hate doing something that I'm not happy doing I mean some editors can just butt in and change your whole story telling you, you have to talk about certain things (sexual things) because the young people love that kinda stuff or people love it that's sad. I won't write anything that would ruin my image some people just write anything like fifty shades of grey what's the point here? I won't tell you what the book was about but just know it can corrupt your mind. The whole story was about one thing and that's what had people going crazy ! I feel sad for these people they don't know what a great book does to your mind. Bad books are like junk food and most of us are addicted. I'm not saying I'm any better I have read them that's how I know they are bad. After I read them I felt like I wanted more so I went and search for more (addicted) yes I am addicted to reading but I hope that I could find good books. If I started to count how many books I have read last year and the beginning of this year I would loose count. I started and I got to 90 but I know there are more. Now I would rather read one good book a year than to read 100 bad ones. Books are important but you need to know what to read, don't just go to the library and take anything on the shelf. Look on the back read about the author or the first page of the book. But don't judge the book by its cover but some of them you have to know I mean If you see a girl posing half naked don't you already know what it's gonna talk about? don't be clueless like everyone oh you don't know what the book is going to talk about really? who you fooling? certainly not me I know those stuff...I have been there. This one time I was reading a harlequin and I was very young my mother was like what kinda book is that? you shouldn't be reading this ! i was like no mom there's a little girl in it just like me that's her mom and dad on the cover !! she didn't buy it LOL anyway pay attention to what you're reading. Peace out.

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2015-10-28T00:43:25+01:00

dark soul, unforgiving

Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Octobre 2015 à 12:43 AM

The first time I met you,

I thought we could be a team.

I thought you and I could be friends.

I forgot how many hearts you've broken.

I forgot how hard it was for you to love and to accept love.

I didn't know how hard it was for you to let me come into your life.

I got lost into your eyes

they were pale

yet exciting

I could see the fire dancing through them

I saw the good in you

you could see right through me

my heart was wide open

you've never accepted the love you deserve

you never got over the past

you breed it

you see it everyday

but i could only see the future with you

I was lost

You left me there

it was dark and cold

you watch me burned with my love

yet you said nothing

my veins were bleeding their eternal love for you

you could look

but you could not see

I whispered your name

softly

you didn't hear me

my thoughts were loud yet you choose not to listen

They say you were not right for me

but I just couldn't help to look at the forbidden fruit

I knew you were bad

but i thought you could be good one day

I trusted you

and you lied.

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2015-10-28T00:20:28+01:00

once in a lifetime...

Publié par Gaelle.R 28 Octobre 2015 à 12:20 AM

Life can be hard sometimes and You want to let go. I don't know how you want to let go, some people drown themselves in music, alcohol and other bad substances. But we forgetting that some of us are really letting go. Earlier this year at my school there was a man who came and he was telling us a story about cyber-bullying. It was devastating to see how mean people can be online. The man's son was in middle school and he was being bullied since the 6th grade a boy was hitting him and calling him names so one day he stood up to him and punch him back. They became friends after that, they were fine for a while. Until the boy who was being bullied had a crush on a girl at school and he started talking to her over the summer so she sent their conversation to her friends and they laughed about it. He was being real and he told her how he really felt he thought she liked him. But she was just faking and that hurts his feeling when he finally find out...the bullying started again and they spread rumors about him being gay. They made fun of him online, they create anonymous account to bully him...with all this he never told his parents. Until one day it was too much and he let go...he couldn't handle it. It breaks my heart to see lot of young people that have their whole life in front of them giving up. My teenage years are the hardest years of my life but do you think I will let go? hell no ! LOL I have to publish something first. I believe we all have something that make us feel pain but don't let go it is not worth it there is more to come trust me. Happiness come unexpectedly and we will never know. Last year I will never thought I would be like this today. You don't know what the future hold, don't end your life like this. God created you for a purpose remember that. I don't know if you agree with me but I hope you remember that someone loves you just the way you are and don't ever forget that. After the man came to my school and told us about his son, I was thinking...a lot...it was so tragic. I mean he stood there and he told us about how his son died it takes a lot of courage. He did it for a reason you know. I felt sad when he was telling us this it felt like I was the boy and all of those things were happening to me...i could not stop thinking about it. I'm telling you this because I care about you and I want you to know that everything has a solution even if it seems like the end of the world. It can be fixed trust me. I know that all of us have issues and some of them are harder than someone else's but you need to know we all have problems. I have problems, you have problems and he/she has problems nobody is perfect it's just" a mask to cover up to truth" (quoting one of my poems) I mean you have to know how to handle hardships. you won't be able to do it alone you can pray, talk to someone don't talk to yourself all the time. Sometimes you just need people, I know that I said you could talk to yourself but not all the time. Yes I talk to myself when I have problems but that's when I get a bad grade on a test or when I got into the wrong buss not when I feel depress. Usually when I feel depress I don't talk at all and that's when the psychiatrist comes in and tell me you have to say something otherwise i cannot help you. How do you feel? You have to say how you feel so you can get some help nobody is gonna guess your problem. Sometimes people can guess if you have bruises people can see you have been beating or abused but the hurt doesn't always show. Most of the time we are damaged inside where" nobody look" (my poem LOL) no one will know unless you tell them I'm hurt. I have been through this over and over again sometimes it's just hard to talk about your personal life where the problem is. But you have to tell someone you trust believe me you feel 10 times better. I did. So can you. I hope all of you is well. love you all.

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2015-10-27T01:17:42+01:00

saying goodbye...

Publié par Gaelle.R 27 Octobre 2015 à 01:17 AM

As I watch the sun came up I can see a new future taking place,

I forgot how bright it was suppose to be

I have spent too much time looking at the moon

I forgot that the stars even existed.

I look deeper and I can see it so bright that my eyes cry a little

but I can't get my eyes off of it

at that moment I know this is what I want.

What's left ?

I cannot see it I can only see what is in front of me.

I forgot to look back and I will never look.

I can see papers, they're flying everywhere and I hold my hand out and take one.

One of them is on fire but I'm not afraid to reach for it and kill the fire out with my own fingers.

They are everywhere birds, papers, airplanes, clouds

I can't seem to compare myself to any of them.

I'm not free as a bird and I was not made to be writing over like a paper.

I don't have wings to fly like airplanes and

I'm not as high as the clouds yet I can still see what's below me.

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2015-10-25T19:48:05+01:00

Flaming thoughts...

Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Octobre 2015 à 07:48 PM

Have you ever had that feeling where you don't really know what you're doing?. You think it's wrong but other people tell you that it is right. Deep down you know you shouldn't do it... but you got lost and now you just don't know what you're doing. I'm not talking about anything in particular it can be anything or anything you want it to be. What I want to say is there are those gray places and when you're there you just don't know what is going on! you try to choose but you find yourself in an empty place. Your mind is blank you just don't know what to say,think, do or whatever...I hate those places and I have been there a few times but somehow i got out. Don't ask me how cause I myself don't remember and I don't know. I don't want to think about those places sometimes they are just dark but most time they are just gray. Your mind is just a box full of things...they are often forbidden and other people want to look what's in there (that's invading private property) anyway I'm not being clear right now but I can't seem to put most of what I'm thinking right now into words.

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2015-10-25T01:30:02+02:00

dreams and childhood memories

Publié par Gaelle.R 25 Octobre 2015 à 01:30 AM

Let me point something out. We all want something right? well why not go get it? I don't want you to anything to put yourself at risk or if you believe in God that you might go against his will. No that's not what I want, you have a dream right? well why not go and make it come true? I know from my own experience there are some dreams that you cannot tell a lot of people, but that's wrong you should be able to say what you want and go for it. I have many dreams and sometimes it is hard for me to tell other people what they are, don't you think I might be afraid of what you might think?but I have grown to learn to accept myself the way I am, to accept my own dreams and most importantly my flaws. For those of you who know me you might think I'm quiet, shy and other things that I don't know...I might be quiet but that does not mean that i am shy. wait! I wander...what was I talking about? oh right go follow your dreams! anyway you should be able to follow your dream. Let me tell you one of my dreams well it's obvious because I have this blog but I'm still going to tell you well I want to publish a book or a poem worldwide, I had this dream from the beginning of my teenage years cause lot of emotions and a lot of things in my mind push me to write even more. As a child I used to write silly stories to entertain my friends I think i was 8 or 9 I can't remember clearly. But one of my childhood memories that I remember clearly cause my mom remind me of it, I was 5 and I wrote her a letter on mother's day she still has it (LOL) anyway I'm glad I could share this with you !

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2015-10-24T14:37:45+02:00

starting....

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Octobre 2015 à 02:37 PM

I thought without you there's was no rain, But I was wrong. I don't hope to see you anymore, I want to get far away from you. The love we had is gone and what is left is nothing but an empty space

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2015-10-23T14:37:37+02:00

Stand back. cut the haters God bless you.

Publié par Gaelle.R 23 Octobre 2015 à 02:37 PM

I hate when people try to make it seem like they know everything. Well if you think you know everything then good for you. To tell you the truth I don't even care about all of the things you think you know. Some people try to make you look like you don't know anything It's BS don't believe them. Usually the people who make you feel this way are just scared that you might actually know some stuff. I can't stand it. I have my own opinions and you have your own and I won't judge because our opinions are different. I'm glad when we both have different opinions because then we will have a good talk. They seriously need to back off of me cause I'm getting pissed. I know I don't usually write about what pisses me off like this ( usually I do it nicer) but this one was savage and I'm still mad. I won't tell who this person is because there are a few and I don't care if they think it's a competition, it really isn't. If you are one of these people who think you know everything like oh I've been there I know what you're doing (I don't care) seriously that was YOU but now it's not you. Not everything is about YOU sometimes you have to accept that you are no longer who you were. That chapter is done man. Now it's someone else turn just sit back in watch. Don't interrupt. If you do that to me I won't directly come across right away but later on you will know how much it hurts(I don't do the revenge thing) but surely you will get what you deserve. I will make sure to be there (i"m sooooooo mad at this person) I don't want to do something That i might regret. BUT SERIOUSLY, YOU NEED TO BACK OFF with all of your " you think you know everything" or " you think you're smart" you damn right I am and i'm so proud.

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