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2018-07-31T04:13:34+02:00

struggles.

Publié par Gaelle.R 31 Juillet 2018 à 04:13 AM

hey there !

how are y'all doing? well I am here hanging on that piece of hope that I had for quite some time now. I have been through a lot of hardhips and I know that I am a very reserved person sometimes it's kind of hard for me to come out of my shell. When it comes to my problems I have the tendency to hold that in and just keep it in when it should be the other way around. I should be using my hardship to motivate others in a way where I can tell them how I overcame and what they can do to get to a better place. Now I don't think that I am a role model or anything but I feel like I've been through some things that some of you may be going through right now and I just want you to know that you are not alone; I'm here and I am going through some hardhips too.

Adulting*

I used to think that being an adult is fun. Don't get me wrong being an adult is not the problem here for me but all the responsabilities that come with itis unbelieveable. If you're still living with your parents, not in college and don't have any bills to pay then consider yourself lucky because honey when I tell you it is hard to take care of everything and still go to school. I don't have any kids and I am happy that I don't right now because I'm still young and it would've been 10 times harder. I feel for the single moms, here I am working my butt off trying to pay all my bills and I still feel myself breaking. I love being independent, I hate borrowing, I love having my own stuff and for that I need to work for it. I don't want to be working my whole life, I want to write, I want to inspire people but I can't do all of that If I'm clock in somewhere and spending the whole day working and come back home exhausted ! I am not super woman and the bills aren't going to pay themselves.

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2018-07-24T07:30:26+02:00

worries and lies

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Juillet 2018 à 07:30 AM

Driving without a destination to clear my mind.

You've done it again.

You lied to me once again and I just stood there and take it because I am afraid to lose you.

My mama didn't raise a coward.

why didn't I give you a peice of my mind and tell you that I am not the one?

why didn't I slap the truth out your mouth?

Why did I take your lies when I already know the truth?

Now I am driving and I don't know where I am going but nowhere near you.

I'm going to hold on to the wheel until I'm brave enough to go back to you and tell you what I know.

But for now let me drive my cowardness away till I can get back to you.

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2018-07-24T06:48:27+02:00

love and material things.

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Juillet 2018 à 06:48 AM

hey there!

what do I think about material things? well that is an interesting question but before I answer that question I just want to say that I am going to elaborate more on my answer after I give it. I think material things destroy us. I say that because I've seen such incredible individuals who were so genuine, caring and nice before they started to get money or the comfort of material things. They become reckless, rude, arrogant, selfish, greedy and disrespectful towards other people who don't have the same money that they have. It's like money make them think that they are all that, Now I know what money can do. I am well aware that we all need it but I wish that we could live without it. I wish we could live in luxury just because we love one another not because of the power that money has.

If I were to go on a date with a guy, straight up I don't care about what brand he's wearing, I don't care about what shoes he's wearing or how many he has at home, I don't care what kind of car he has. Take me for a fool if you want but I am not after his money I got my own and I can support myself. I don't want a rich boyfriend. I want a genuine, caring, nice, someone I can count on, someone who will stand by me through anything and a guy who loves the real me. The me without makeup,with my natural hair out and all of my flaws spreading right in front of him. I don't want a guy who has all the latest devices and clothes because that doesn't make him who he is, to me all of it would be a decoration pleasing to my eyes. what about his character? who he is as a person is what I care about.

I've had the chance to meet inceredible souls throughout the years and some of them made an impression on me and some I had to let go. I will only let go of someone only If I feel like they are not giving me what I think it's the best version of themselves. I will never let someone impeccable go. some people I will never forget that I have known them because of what they made me feel while I was around them good or bad. You can't impress me with all your material things. I don't care about what you have. I am not jealous of you either I just feel like I should be focusing more on you as a human instead of all your "decorations".

*just speaking my mind.

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2018-07-24T06:30:25+02:00

catching up.

Publié par Gaelle.R 24 Juillet 2018 à 06:30 AM

Hey there? how y'all doing?

well I'm fine I've been busy.I am sure that I said that last time but the big announcement is that I now own an apartment with my bestfriend one of my favorite human being. I am so excited for this big step. It's like I have more responsabilities now and I feel more like an adult as if I wasn't one already lol but nah this is real. I am my own chief now, I do what I want and I still have to keep focus and keep my head in the game. Do you know how hard that is to stay focus when there's so many distractions. I kknow what I want. I know what I want to accomplish but wanting is one thing, working for it is another. I know some people didn't and still don't believe in me, they congradulating me and still have second thoughts in their heads. I don't care about all that, I know what I came here to do and I am not going to stop no matter what. It's a tough game to play and some people will have their own opinions and that's all they going to have an "opinion " about what they think of me or who they think I might turn out to be. I've heard enough and I know who's with me and who's not. I just want to say that I am happy and I very grateful to have my own place. I am grateful for everything that happened to me this year. It doesn't stop here...there's more to come.

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2018-07-19T06:46:23+02:00

what's been happening.

Publié par Gaelle.R 19 Juillet 2018 à 06:46 AM

Hi there !

it's been a while since I have been gone. The last I came here things were so different. I have been busy and there's been a lot going on. I know some of you are wondering what am I talking about...well be patient with me and I don't like telling everything all at once it takes a while for me to say what I wanna say. Bad or good thing but i'm never in a hurry. I like to take my time. I hate rushing. Although I move fast and I walk fast, some may say I drive fast but I don't take that as a good thing because nothing good comes out when things are in a rush.

Things are good for me and I am happy. Not always happy because bad things happen but I have a good feeling about life and I hope that more good things are on the way.

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