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Feeling defeated. 

Summers aren’t usually the best time of year for me, I want to enjoy it as much as I can but it doesn’t really feel great. If I could afford a fancy vacation this is the time I would take it because my mental health usually declines during this time of year. 

I wish I could explain why I am not as happy as everyone else in the summer but the only explanation that I can come up with is that I feel pressured to be happy in that time, pressured to be outside and to have fun but the people I want to hang out are either are not in my life anymore or I don’t have any new friends. You could say why not just make new friends? Well I can and I do but it’s hard to keep up with them. It’s becoming harder for me to maintain the friendships in my life, it hurts that I can’t be friends with the people I love but who aren’t in my life anymore. I miss them, sometimes I want to call them but it’s probably best if I don’t… I wish them all the happiness in the world. 

Today is not a good day for me, I have a ton of things to do and all I want to do is stay in my bed and cry. I feel defeated, I need a hug and I need a friend. My message to you is cherish all your friends and tell them you love them because you don’t know what the future holds so love them while you can. I will go pray now.