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I don’t know what’s going on, but I’ve been feeling stuck lately, and repeating the same mistakes again but that’s alright I am human, and I am still learning… 

But it’s that time to get it together …

I usually start with my environment and my appearance first. There’s not much to do in my environment it’s not that messy but it could be more organized; My appearance is fine I am not looking like a raccoon at the moment, I even find myself beautiful! but when my brain is in chaos so is everything around me; that’s how I know things aren’t going well.

But no more of that! Let’s start today. I saw this step-by-step list on Pinterest let’s go over it together: 

• Drink water. When I drink water, I feel hydrated and much better. I always have my water bottle with me, but I need to reach for it more. 
• Eat on time. I have not been eating much lately and I have been losing weight, which is great, but I still need to eat so I don’t starve.
• Sleep. Well, that’s not a problem I usually sleep for more than 8 hrs. at night when I am not struggling to fall asleep and thy doesn’t happen frequently only under certain circumstances. 
• Stop crying over boys. Well, that’s not a problem I haven’t cried over a boy in a very long time. I am traumatized of men, and I am scared that I will never be an able to trust a man enough to be in a relationship. Why would I cry over a guy when I look like this? I am young and beautiful; I will never be this young and hot again! Let me enjoy it now and have fun. I do talk to guys but I’m just having fun may the best man win…
• Work out: I work out whenever I feel like it and that’s unusually 2-3 times a week, but I guess I could do it way more often? I work out at home. I have all the equipment I need.
• Focus on the important things. I do need to do that because I dissociate a lot. I don’t focus on what’s important but rather what’s not because it’s less time consuming? Actually, I don’t know but that needs to change ASAP.

There’s more to the list but it’s in my journal and it wayyy too personal.