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Alone.

I don’t like the holidays simply because I feel

Really lonely. Everyone has plans to hang out with their families or their love interest but I am

Always home alone. I might as well be Kevin Maccalister from home alone lol! 

But I don’t celebrate Christmas or any holidays for all that matters. I don’t celebrate my birthday either which accidentally falls on Christmas Eve! Wow lucky me.

Believe it or not I did celebrate my birthday for a few years even though it felt weird but all I did was hang out with my friends because I hate being alone around that time. I don’t miss celebrating my birthday because I never believed I should I just like to feel special… I still try to pamper myself like get my nails done, get my hair done and dress up for no reason but deep down I feel so lonely and it hurts. I am giving up on friendships and love; I am getting older and what I said is dumb but every year that passes by that I am waiting on love or a friend I get even more disappointed so now I am done. I am not expecting anyone to fall in love with me or to be my friend. I am going to continue being myself and if I happen to meet someone then great if not well I just keep running away every few years. I have a plan to switch out everything in my life maybe that’ll happen in 2024. I do want to move and possibly change my name, change my number lol… that’s insane.