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The teacher who ruin my childhood.
When I was in the 6th grade I had a teacher and I was traumatized by her. She used to abuse all of us and treat us so bad that some of us and even me had bruises all over our bodies. It took me months to get rid of all the bruises she put on my legs, she used to hit us with a belt and tell us how stupid we were. I used to get it the worse when she taught math because I hated math because of her and I was traumatized to even open my Textbook to learn because she told me I would never be good at math; she would beat me so much with that belt I begged my mom to take me out of school but it was in the middle of the school year so she wanted me to wait until the year was over!

I could not wait! When I would go to school I would pray that I would get hit by a car; one time I even walked in front of a car hoping that it would hit me. But I knew that was wrong so I came up with another plan because I didn’t want to die, I knew I was all my mom had. I tried to study hard in the other subjects but was never good at math; so the teacher would send me to the board to solve a problem and then make fun of me. Because of what she did to me, I did the worst thing that I am still ashamed about to this day! I pretended I was sick one day and my mom let me stay home. I was so happy to be safe at home that I kept lying for a week that my belly hurt and that I was still sick, then kept lying for months. I would not eat, I would be in the hospital a lot and eventually, I did become sick because of all the medication I was taking. I hated myself, I was sooo sad and I was in pain emotionally because I didn’t want to lie to my mom but I knew if I had to go back to school I would find a way to die because I could not bear to be in that classroom. I felt bad because my mom spent so much money to get me treated but there was really nothing wrong with me well at least not with my belly. I never told my mom that I was never sick, and I can never tell her.

I feel so ashamed because of that, I pray to God daily to forgive me for that lie I told when I was a kid. Eventually that teacher was fired because she beat up a kid so bad that the kid ended up in the hospital! And once she was fired I returned to school and I did pass that year! I had a state test and I aced that one too because I would do all of my homework from home and I would still study daily! I even pass the math portion! ;)