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Mental health.

i am not sure how  I am doing mentally because I just feel numb and I am just soooo quiet. I am taking a leave from work so I can sit with my emotions and allow myself to feel everything. I didn’t want to rush going back to work while not facing my feelings regarding my father being gone, at first I wanted to believe that he just went on vacation and that he is just fine but that would be a lie I would tell myself when the pain is too much for me to bare. I am in contact with my therapist and my psychiatrist… to make sure I don’t drown in my pain. I know myself and I am feeling this huge guilt for not being there for my dad when he needed me that I hate myself. No one knows how I feel, when people see me they will think I am just sad or just depressed like always… but no I am broken at the moment and all I need is my mommy.