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Are they your friends.

Lately I see a lot of people normalize being alone and as someone who never had a lot of friends that was never an issue. At a very young age I knew I was weird and I knew how different I was which is not a great combo if you want a lot of friends. Sure some weird people manage to have lots of friends but for me it felt more like a chore than an enjoyable experience.

As I always say I don’t have a lot of energy to pass around, I can only focus on one person at a time because I am very genuine. If I give you all of my attention and give you all of my resources best believe I care about you, and whatever I did for you will never be said out loud as a way to hold that against you ( I was more than happy to help)and I will never tell anyone else what I did for you either that stays between us. I am a very loyal friend, anything that my friends told me stayed between us even if we’re aren’t friends anymore. 

Being a great friend doesn’t always guarantee that you will receive a great friend either. At the moment my only great friend is my mom and my work bestie she  is genuinely a great person and I love her (she doesn’t know that lol). I realize who my friends were when my dad passed, some people would say “ I am here for you if you need anything” but they only meant it for one day. They never really cared to talk to me after the funeral which was the hardest part! I will never hold that against anyone. We are humans so therefore I can’t expect anything more than what they are able to offer. My coworkers gave me flowers and let me talk any time I wanted; they provided me with a safe space and for that I am forever grateful.

You will know who your true friends are when you’re going through a tough time not when you’re happy and not when they need something from you. Trust me a great friend will always reveal themselves to you.