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*if you don’t want to read about people’s weight, diet and eating disorder then please skip this read.

I am sharing my story with you because I think it might help if you’re going through the same thing. I have been very open about my weight gain journey and about how I regretted doing it the way that I did because I cheated, I took something to slow down my metabolism in order to gained weight. Naturally I was born slim but my dream have always been to gain weight and I accomplished it.

As soon as I gained the weight, I felt bad! I didn’t like the way that I look at all! I was crying a lot, and my skin was breaking out sooo bad! My hormones were unbalanced, and I felt really depressed. I was binge eating, crying and wishing I could stop. In 2021, I finally put my foot down and took things seriously. I started eating healthy, went to a dermatologist and I started working out here and there. I felt great! And I lost weight! I started looking good again. But it was never enough! 

Let’s go back to high school, I was around a girl who had an eating disorder! She would not eat at all! And because I was around her so much I thought maybe if I do it, I could get abs! I was already super skinny, so I became even skinnier! I don’t think I had an eating disorder because I would still eat but I had a bad relationship with food. I am doing much better now; I think my relationship with food is good. 

Let me tell you a secret, you see all those celebrities losing weight fast? Most of them uses Ozempic ! I wanted to try it as well ! It is super expensive because my insurance will never cover it! I am not diabetic at all thank God nor is my weight close to being 200 pounds! So, I am not qualified but I found a way to get my hands on it. It is expensive! When I realize I was about to spend that much money to lose weight that’s when I realize that something needs to change!

Almost immediately I stopped searching for ways to get my hands on it! I started going to the gym and started eating healthier this is the best way! It is a scientific fact if you eat healthier and work out you will lose weight! So that’s the route I am taking. I don’t want to put something else in my body to lose weight I already did that when I wanted to gain weight! I hate that I did that! But it’s alright at least I look good lol but I want to rectify my mess now. My bestie is on the same journey as me and I think we can do it.