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Hey you guys, 

I feel like I’ve left you all at a cliffhanger but I am trying to come back here. I haven’t been inspired much to write lately but I’ve been trying to stay  active in other areas of my life  as much I can. I’ve learned quite a few things those past few days, it is okay to take breaks and to take it one day at a time. I have been on go mode for months now because after my dad’s passing I have been trying to avoid sinking into a deep depression and I am glad to say that I haven’t ! but I know that I am still mourning especially my one of my cats passed away 2 months after my dad which was also quite traumatizing. 

There are still days that I forget for a few minutes that my daddy is no longer here, when I think of New York I see him! I don’t think I can ever set foot there anytime soon or at least I am not trying to rush it. A lot of things reminds of him, eating Patties or some type of bread. A store that we used to go together, a place we went to once… I would start crying out of nowhere and one time I cried at a grocery store! Someone saw me but I just pretended that it was my allergies but there’s no way that person believed me! I don’t like crying in front of people. Actually I don’t like showing any types of emotions in front of strangers! I am very private. I don’t think most people know the real me! They mostly think that I am quiet and that I stay to myself little do they know that I love to talk, I love to laugh and have fun with the people I love because not a lot of people get to see the fun side of me. You would look at me and it would just be a blank wall! Is there any thoughts behind those eyes? I can assure you that my mind is very chaotic and anyone would get lost in there. 

One thing I learn is to never let anyone define me because I am odd and often times people have the wrong perception about me. I learn to just do what I want and to be who I want to be. I don’t have to prove myself to anyone you can see me as a quiet person or as a fun person but I know who I am and that’s all that matters.