2018

hello,

I don't know where the time is going but it surely doesn't wait for anyone.  So far this year has been full of surprises. I just hope that this year is better than 2017 because last year was the hardest and there was a lot of change and transitioning. I don't mind the change as long as it's good but deep down I still wish things were great and that I didn't need to change anything. Life is unexpected and one can only hope. we don't know what the future holds which is why we are constantly looking for ways to make things better because we cannot see that things will fall into place and be exactly the way that the are suppose to be. We just want what's great and what's good forgetting that what's bad is what shape us. The good times are just a bonus, we do need the good times to be happy and to keep going but we need the bad times to learn and to become better human beings. I am not going to sit here and type that I am looking forward for the bad times,no one is and I hate when things don't work out. I hate starting over sometimes but I have to sometimes because that's how I move on. We all have our own ways and as the years flew by we learn what's best for us and what we really need.

despite all,

2017

• It was the year that I grew the most, that year I learn to accept myself the way I was flaws and all. I learn to accept my natural hair I mean I used to love my hair but not enough to leave it the way it is which is thick and all natural. I used to perm it and wear braids all the time but living with two women who truly love their natural hair taught me how to fall in love with mine and I did. I felt great after I  cut my hair so short that the old me would've hate it but the new me loved it so much that everyone else around me accepted it. I didn't cut my hair for them I did it for me as a new beginning and it was. I've learn to fall in love with my body flaws and all. I've learn to block out the negative comments about how small or petite that I was I simply love me for me. Even though I am still small I have no problem being that way because it's my body type and I learn not to change for anyone if there is any change to be made I will simply do it for myself. I've learn to embrace the music in my culture well that happened at the end of the year and  I used to listen to any other music but the one from my country I used to think they were corny or whatever. By the end of the year I could see how much I've been missing out and so I started to find them so inspiring that instantly fell in love with the sound. I've learn to move one from any relationship that wasn't good for me. At the beginning of that year I was dreaming about someone and I wanted so much from that person but with time I realize that I was wasting my time so I walked away because I loved me more. It was a waste of my time and It did not work out I thought it was very promising only to realize that it was a dead end. I don't think that I wanted a relationship that time because I wanted to be single too. I wasn't ready for a relationship but I can't say what I would've done if the person wanted the same thing that I wanted. Still at the beginning of year I was over that person but I had respect for our connection but after I realize that It was a dead end I cut all ties and moved on completely and it was the best decision I ever made. I have learn to take on responsibilities and I started working on greater things that I have not before... 

I only talked about the good things that happened to me that year because I am all about positivity and being optimistic I want to focus on the good things. I am grateful for everything and I am happy to share some things with you.

hope y'all had a good day !! 

bye for now.