move on

I am currently moving on from a friendship. At the end of 2025 I decided to let that person go, although it was a hard decision but it had to be done. When people see that I cut them off they always think it was easy for me! but it's never easy but I would admit it is easier for me compare to some other people. When I cut someone off I wipe the whole memory clean, I delete every files I kept for that person. I don't have heir number, I may still follow them on social media but it's not the same and they know it. They may not know when I cut them off or the reason why, they may think it happened all of a sudden but it didn't. I kept into account every disrespect, every heartache, every disappoint on file and when I decide enough is enough that's when I cut the person off.

I do hold a lot of grudge, I try to forgive people for bad things they do to me but it's hard! that's one of my flaws I cannot forgive easily! I always have to pray to God for help me to forgive others. But you know what one thing that helps me to forgive is when I remember how many times I messed up and asked God to forgive me. Then I have no choice to forgive that person...It may be hard and the memories of what they did will always be imprinted in my mind but I try to push it back and move forward. But there are some things I can't let completely slide and be cool with the person again, it requires me to fully cut them off and become strangers again with no second thought. when I make that decision  I almost never go back, I only went back twice and both time I could see why I cut the person off.