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2016-12-09T12:00:06+01:00

cultured.

Publié par Gaelle.R 9 Décembre 2016 à 12:00 PM

Hello ! it's like 5 am and I should be sleeping but I am here because I guess I love to be here with you (aww) I can almost hear you saying that through the screen. I think It's cold outside I didn't go yet. But before I go I want to discuss something with you. It would be more of an opinion rather than a statement.

Well I am sure that you are well aware by now that I am going to say what other people don't think I was going to say. I believe that If you don't have a positive thing to say then it's better to keep your mouth shut but I never heard that you shouldn't write it !! LOL I am going to write it trust me. The person who Is going to marry me will have a lot to handle LOL I can imagine how it's going to be. He would ask me a simple question as "you ok? " and I would be like "fine" with a hint of attitude of course and he will be like I don't think so and I would say " whatever " and walk away LOL. Then somehow after a while I am fine again and laughing so all is forgotten and so it seems. LOL it's only when he comes here on my blog or found my notebook I just hate the word diary It sounds like a children type of book and trust me it won't be for children so I am going to call it my special notebook. When he find it he is going to take it without telling me spend the whole day reading it and still not understand but some pages will be very direct and he will find out what he did three months ago LOL I mean It was not ok. I only yell when it's extreme (it's not a pretty side) You would never expect me to yell for something so stupid like a toothbrush but really it's not about the toothbrush it's about what you did you fool hahahaha

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2016-12-08T16:03:28+01:00

Your name.

Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Décembre 2016 à 04:03 PM

I hear your name echoes in my head and I wonder how long have I been deaf to it.

Perhaps I didn't want to hear it, yet I can't ignore it.

Something about your name calms me down.

I don't know what is it but hearing each syllables give me the serenity that I need.

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2016-12-07T01:59:47+01:00

(...)

Publié par Gaelle.R 7 Décembre 2016 à 01:59 AM

they don't know about us

if they know it wouldn't be this special.'

Seeing the smile on your face is what I look forward to.

Wish you knew how much You mean to me,

but I can't tell you and they mustn't know.

If only you could hear the words I don't say.

If only you could see what my eyes aren't showing.

If only...

But You don't know and there's nothing I can do.

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2016-12-06T16:37:54+01:00

check in

Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Décembre 2016 à 04:37 PM

hello !

how is everything? well my life is alright I hope yours is too. I am sorry if I seemed distant lately I don't mean to be but life is not always fair and sometimes you just have to sit and think what gone wrong. I am not ignoring you I probably did not even see you and I am sorry if you think that I am being mean lol I am apologizing because I think you think that I am mean ?!! who does that? LOL well you've enter a world full on crazy. Enjoy your stay and have a look around. Man I am soooooooooooooooooooooooo Tired aren't you? I don't know if it's the thought but honestly I feel so dramatic when I think about sleeping. Yet I don't want to sleep !! I just wanna write and write until my hands hurt. That never happens before but my hands can get weak from holding a pen for too long LOL anyways I just wanted to post something I haven't done that in a while so here I am writing this as I procrastinate on my English final paper... I will get back to it, it's no big deal If I put my mind into it I can finish it in 10 minutes. But I want to take time doing this one because it's my final one I want it to be the one. I am writing about the worn path that story I told you about a couple days ago. I love that story. There is soooo much to it I mean it's not just about love it's also about guilt I am now realizing that now. I mean what can I say Love is Love and there is nothing to say.

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2016-12-02T03:33:24+01:00

what being 19 is all about.

Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Décembre 2016 à 03:33 AM

Hello...

how was your day ? it's Thursday so I guess there was a lot of throwbacks (..) still can't figure out why it's throwback Thursday...What is it about Thursday that's so special ? anyways I am not going to talk about Thursdays. I wanted to discuss this before it's too late. I am sure some of you already figure out that I am 19 through my Instagram or twitter page but in exactly 23 days I will turn 20 so let me tell you all about it. Being 19 is nothing different from being 18 well sort of but not that different. Well I guess you are now a sophomore or a freshman in college if you flunk your first year. But usually you are a sophomore so now you've got the hang of it you know how it feels to do a pill of homework right before it's due. You know all about those late night studying, eating lunch at midnight and breakfast for lunch. You know how it feels to run out of food, money and you know how it feels to be extremely tired by now. You feel like you are a total failure sometimes because you feel like you should know a lot by now but you keep making the same mistakes over and over again. Don't worry you are allowed to make mistakes ( I need to hear this too) You will make mistakes and just when you think it can't get any worse well it will and just when you think it won't get any better well it will. I know you feel like you don't know what you're doing but you know you just have to trust that feeling and go for it. By now you know who your real friends are and you probably don't talk to half of the people you used to talk to in high school but that's okay they are also figuring out their lives like you are doing it right now. I know that being 19 is just a number but being that age I have learn so much. I know that I probably don't look my age but none of that matters and it will never matter it's how I am that counts. Being 19 I became more responsible and I did a lot of things for the first time and all of them have taught me so much

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2016-12-01T04:06:29+01:00

(just started...)

Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Décembre 2016 à 04:06 AM

Running like a bat I can barely see the light creeping in at the crack of dawn.

I want to get higher where my wings will get caught in the eagle's path.

The light brought the darkness to my eyes.

Bright yet so far, I wonder how much it takes to get close to the sun.

I can barely fly straight.

Will I make it to the bottom if I go up this way?

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2016-12-01T03:20:21+01:00

A worn path

Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Décembre 2016 à 03:20 AM

Hello there...

I just finish reading a story and I just had to share it with you. It's about an old lady who is making a long trip to town she pass through Forrest, hills, lands and she encountered animals, imaginary people (trick of old age I think) she was frail, fragile and she could barely tie her own shoes. She has an umbrella as a cane. Her dress got caught in bushes but she managed to take it out without any torn. She was imagining a boy bringing her cake I guess that shows how famished she is.By the way her name is Phoenix a very powerful name. she wanted to get to town despite everything. She got run over by a big black dog but she couldn't get up on her own so a hunter came by and help her up with his dog. The hunter was not nice he mainly spoke to her about her age and kept calling her granny, he told her to go home. But who is he to tell her to go home after she came all this way? but she told him that she had to get to town a...it was far and the hunter laugh, pointed his gun at her playfully and he sent his dog to chase the black dog. She walked away and kept walking until she got to town. She was going into a building so she asked a shop lady to help her tie her shoes. She did not want to be under dress! Anyways I love that she is thinking that way. She got in the building and it is a hospital. she came to get a medicine for her grandson who has throat problem I think he has lye poisoning. When she came a nurse recognized her and ask her for her grandson...she took a while to answer. The lady was asking her if he was dead but she said no he was still sick. The lady got her the medicine she came for as a charity case because it was Christmas (see why I like Christmas people are nice around that time) and the guy by the door gave her a nickel so she is going by the store to get her grandson a present with the medicine...

she was so happy that she got the medicine and the money to get her grandson a present. How wonderful is that? Love will allow someone to go through the extra mile. I am reading this and I am thinking about my grandmother and all the things she did for me. I am thinking about my mom and all the sacrifices she made to have me. Love is really something that can never be define. You'll never know how much someone love you because they just love you and that's all that there is. Love is everything. That's what makes the grandmother walk all the way to town for her grandson, to spend all her money on a present for her grandson. I admire phoenix. She is not selfish nor is she waiting for something in return. She just do what she must do without looking back because she has love in her heart.

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