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You know what I hate more than anything? People forcing me to leave the house. I know those people mean well but at times I want to tell them to leave me alone. We can all choose to live our lives the way we want to, Jesus died for me not only so I could have everlasting life but so I can choose how I want to live my life.

It's okay that I am an introvert, It's okay that I love books, it's okay that I hate parties, It's okay that I don't want a camera shoved in my face, it's okay that I don't want to stay out past a certain times. I wake up at 4am daily, by 5pm I am starting to get tired so I need to unwind. People think that I spend the whole day in the house and I wish that I did because I love being home. I spend 9hours at work, I wake up at the crack of dawn to go work out and rush home to get ready for work, come home late in the afternoon and now I have a second gym session at 6-7pm. So when I do get to be home which is on the week end I take that time for myself and I don't care who invites me for anything because if I am tired I am simply not going. I am not forcing myself to hang out when I don't want to, I have interacted with people all week. If I want to spend my time at home reading, sleeping then that's totally fine because I deserve it. I am not a loser I have a life outside not hanging out with you, my life is quite busy actually. so when I want to spend Sunday at home all day on the couch reading I earned it.

I am about to be 30 years old, I don't hide my feelings. If I don't want to hang out then I'll let you know. If I say I'll think about it then it means it all depends on my mood that, if I feel like going then I'll go. I value my alone time and my rest days. I workout a lot and I need to rest, screw anyone who calls me a grandma for not being at a party every week end. My goals in life doesn't include some little party where I get to stand in the corner dreading that I went out. My party days are over now I am working to be closer to Jehovah, to become financially stable, buying a house, moving to a new city, buying a car and traveling. Grown woman things... if you want a girl to party with you, then go find it because I am not. I can be, but that's when I decide to be just like you decided to go to a party I can decide to stay home with my snacks and read. I am not boring, I am far from that. It takes the right people to see how fun I am, and if I don't like you then you'll get the serious version of me because nothing is funny and I actually don't want to hang out with you specifically.