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2025-12-13T19:44:16+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 13 Décembre 2025 à 07:44 PM

Saturdays are becoming my favorite days now. I normally sleep early Friday nights because my body is normally really sore from working out the whole week, like last night for example my back was soooo sore I couldn’t even lay on my back! I love back days because I love a nice muscular back especially in men omg, but on women omg it’s just sooo beautiful. One of my fitness goals is to have a nice muscular back, I am almost there! Anyways I slept for 10 hours last night. I woke up around 6am to get ready for the gym and started my workout at 7am it was a nice workout, I destroyed my legs and glutes! I loved every minute of it!

And no my back is no longer sore because I slept.

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2025-12-12T16:50:27+01:00

what I do to calm myself down

Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Décembre 2025 à 04:50 PM

To calm myself down I do quite a few things and it varies depending on if I am in public or not:

If I am getting a panic attack in public which rarely happens now unless I am alone in a huge crowd or I am out and I don't like my outfit. Sometimes I get anxious for absolutely no reason which happens quite often I would play with my ring, count to 10 in my head, breathe in and out 5 times (concentrate on each breath and it gets easier as I keep breathing).
If I am home and I get anxious, sad or angry I will close my eyes and picture myself at the beach, I would play wave sound in the background to really take me there. I love the beach especially the wave (in the summer I would go to the beach to nap lol), trees, nature, birds sounds, lakes, mountains...all of those things makes me happy and calm me down.
In my house there's always rain sound coming from My Alexa so yeah it is always raining at my house. that sound makes me feel peaceful and at ease.
I also color with crayons in a coloring book yes It's for kids but that helps me calm down.

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2025-12-12T14:36:19+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 12 Décembre 2025 à 02:36 PM

Hey you guys a little mini update.

I am turning 29 years old on December 24th wow can you believe it? I started this blog when I was 15 years old! it was my greatest possession at that time. I was a teenager in high school and I was soo lost! I was learning English for the very first time. I am so glad to take all of you on my journey. We basically grew up together and now we about to hit a huge milestones next year when I turn 30 years old! wow this does not feel real at all.

Because it's December I can drink wine and I have been for the past 2 weeks. I normally have 1/2 or not even glass of red wine with my dinner. It does feel weird lol because I don't normally drink and some days I skip the wine because I feel a little woozy lol...before I used to drink a whole bottle now I can't even drink 1/2 a glass lol but you know what I love that for me because I don't like drinking alcohol alone at home or even at parties. I like being sober way more than being tipsy.

I have been feeling low lately, not like sad but low energy. Normally when I feel this way I look what I ate the day before, what I drank, am I scrolling on social media for hours? well right now I need a detox. I need to stop eating some foods, stop talking to some people, stop engaging in reckless activities well not that many but there are some.

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2025-12-11T19:32:33+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Décembre 2025 à 07:32 PM

Honestly I don't think I can date a man who doesn't work out, even though I still reject guys while I remain happily single (I am already looking into adoption process because I don't think I will find that man to get married and pregnant by, I desperately want a kid) but aside from all of that if he doesn't work out he won't understand me at all!

How do I tell him yes I did go to the gym to lift weights in the morning but now in the afternoon I am going outside for a run even though it is 25 degrees out! and yes I spend 2 hours at the gym and no I didn't go anywhere else besides the grocery store lol and yes I have to sleep 8 hours a night and yes I am in bed by 7:30pm and the times I stayed up talking to him on the phone past 8:30 pm was me sacrificing my sleep for him. How do I tell him at times I go to sleep at 7:30pm so I can get 9 hours of sleep a night...he will think I am crazy when I tell him I need to consume 140-150 grams of protein a day so I need to eat 3-4 times a day lol (I don't drink soda, fast foods, juice, ice cream, pizza) oh he gonna lose it when I tell him I wake up at 4:24 am daily even on the week ends lol but on those days I do go back to sleep

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2025-12-11T16:10:18+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 11 Décembre 2025 à 04:10 PM

things I've heard about myself

I have an intense stare
I have a dry humor
I am quiet or I am loud surprisingly
I am nice
I look like way younger than my actual age (oh ok)
I am reserved
that I have a cold stare lol
that I am not as welcoming (I mean depending on my mood that day)
that I do what I want (ok yes)
that I like being alone(true)
that I isolate myself too much (Ok not true!)
That I am introverted (true)
that I look mean (how I look mean but I'm nice?)
that I am always in a hurry (true)

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2025-12-08T18:50:29+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 8 Décembre 2025 à 06:50 PM

If I was a man I would only date women who goes to the gym! I love looking at them they work so hard for their body and they motivate me. They're disciplined, patient, hard working, dedicated and overall beautiful. They only get finer and finer! you saw them 6 months ago and 6 months later they look even better! ugh we're in a whole another league.

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2025-12-06T19:38:51+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 6 Décembre 2025 à 07:38 PM

In dating

I have a no bullshit mentally, I tell you what I like and what I don’t like, when you know and you chose to do something completely different that’s when we’re done. I won’t make a scene or create a toxic environment just because I am not getting what I need, I’ll simply leave. Why do I have to beg a man to act right when another man can give me what I want without me asking?

I always advise my friends to chose the man and not give the man the power to chose whether he wants you or not. No babe you’re the prize! Stop worshiping these men and put the focus back on yourself. One thing I always remember “ the egg doesn’t swim to the sperm! The sperm swim to the egg” never chase a man, let him do what he wants and you decide whether you want to stay or not. If you’re not going to leave then stop complaining! You’ve made your bed so now you have to lay in it.

One thing for sure it takes a lot to keep me interested. I am always busy and one thing to really know if I like you or not, is when I give you my time and I let you into my world. Meaning I invite you to my place, let you be around my cats, let you in my car, let you work out with me… those places are my most intimate and private places I don’t let just anyone in there. I am a slow burner and I never move fast when it comes to love. I never give anyone I don’t like my time, I can’t entertain anything I don’t feel in my heart excites me. I follow my head more than my emotions. I’m the type of person who would confess my love today and gone tomorrow. I never stay where I don’t feel welcomed or comfortable. I don’t force anyone to love me or be with me, I am more comfortable alone! Opening myself up to someone is torture and he would have to be worth the heartache that may come with it. I am an avoidant I don’t really need much … but from the person I love I may need a little more.

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2025-12-04T15:23:39+01:00

creatine update

Publié par Gaelle.R 4 Décembre 2025 à 03:23 PM

I started taking creatine last month and I am doing amazing on it! I have seen a lot of growth in the little 3 weeks that i have been taking it. I think I look amazing...that is shocking because I never find my body beautiful! but I am slowly falling in love with it. I am falling in love with the muscle definition, and the booty growth. I used to pray to fall in love with my body. I always had a love and hate relationship with my body. There was a time I couldn't stand hearing any comment about my body whether bad or good, when someone criticized how skinny I was I used to cry and feel hideous...Looking back I was a very beautiful girl and I am even more beautiful now.

Realizing ones beauty is not being conceited it's appreciating one self. I had to work hours and hours in the gym to finally get here and I am glad I did. So in conclusion I love taking creatine and I will probably keep taking in until I decide to stop but I probably won't. Creatine is giving me more booty growth and more muscle definition overall :) I am so glad I made the decision to go back on it. I stopped way too soon, yes it does give you a bloated look in the beginning and a lot of water retention but you have to ride out that phase and yes you have to drink a lot of water to fully reap the benefit of muscle growth.

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2025-12-04T14:49:10+01:00

survived another scare

Publié par Gaelle.R 4 Décembre 2025 à 02:49 PM

Honestly after the week that I had last week I feel like a totally different person. I am not even sure I am 100% recovered from all of the stress that I went through, I will take this week end to reset. I plan on going to a sauna, do a cold plunge or getting a massage...one or all of them I don't know. In my mind last week I died...and in a way I did die...a part of me will never be the same. I never cried this hard throughout this year like I did last week, in fact I didn't cry all year. It was all a build up of emotions, past hurt, realization and heartache... all the emotions came back to the surface and I didn't know how to push them back down.

I realize who were my real supporters, my fake friends and my die hard family and friends. Best friends became strangers, family became enemies, lovers became just an after thought. The people I thought would have my back didn't, the people I never in a 10000 years thought would be there for me were! Jehovah stayed with me throughout the whole ordeal....I was suicidal actually no correction the thought did cross my mind because it was just too much to handle. If no one had come through for me in any way I would not be here this week...what I am trying to do is to learn ways to deal instead of looking for a quick way out. I need to be stronger than this and stop faking being okay.

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2025-12-01T19:51:01+01:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 1 Décembre 2025 à 07:51 PM

Honestly I would not be able to survive in life without a routine, I need structure in my life without it I am lost. I can't live a life where everyday is unpredictable. when I am in that situation because things do happen unexpectedly and we cannot plan every foreseeable situation I get really depressed, anxious and I can't wait until things get back to normal. I need a routine, a plan and a path to follow because I am very detail oriented... any slight change in the plan really mess me up.

Every day is the same for me, nothing new or out of the box... I have the same routine and yes it gets boring but when I try to do something out of ordinary I can't handle it lol I get overwhelmed and I can't wait to get back to my usual routine.

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