Break down

I've had my moments and some of you may not know what's really been going on behind this screen. I think I have limited the amount of information that I share but sometimes you have to let some stuff out one way or another. I have been known as someone who doesn't know how to express herself clearly. I don't really know how to react on some situations. I have been known as someone who seem to take things lightly but those people who think that I don't take things seriously clearly don't know me. I stress about everything and I have to always call my mom and staying on the phone with her for hours simply because she is trying to calm me down. Sometimes I feel like I have schizophrenia, no it is not that extreme but no one really know what is going on inside of me. I don't talk about my problems to anybody like that unless I trust you, feel comfortable with you or you're my mother

so many hardships yet I am still smiling and laughing because I have to be strong simply because it is not the end. God knew I could fight this battle that's why I am going through it he would never give me a weight that I can't carry. For starters I don't give too many details about my life here and I have my reasons but writing is therapeutic to me so I have to let it out one way or another. Some of you do sports or sing which is really good but me I just write until I feel better sometimes I write for the whole day... other times I just dozed off. But for the most part I always try to get back up each time I have had  moments where I felt lost and not only that it seemed like I was lost which have been happening a lot recently. I feel like this year is the hardest for some reason because I am growing up at a pace that I never have. I am going through some things for the first time and I don't quite know how to react yet. I am just learning...

I need to learn to take things slow and to realize that everyone have their own time. I will have my own time and it's okay if it's not right now because one day all the pieces we fall back into place. I just need to stay sane and not letting every single thing drives me crazy. I still have a lot to learn we all do but each day we get better at it. I know that we are all fighting our own battles and that mine will never be the same as yours. Which is why we all need to be mindful that everyone have their own way of letting things out. we don't always need to take things  personal when someone else  do something that upset you it may be because they are going through something although it is still not okay.