currently.

I had an experience today that almost felt like I was about to pass out... I felt like I was out of my body for a second. I was scared for a minute. I had a coffee with expresso shot and let me tell you my heart was beating so fast, my head was spinning all over the place and I couldn't stand up. I still drove home only God knows how I did it, I can't remember the whole ride home and I drove the car !

I would advise anyone who has not eat or haven't been eating properly not to drink coffee with an expresso shot. I am still not okay. It's been 4 hours since I drink it and I am not feeling well at all. My eating habit is very strange I either eat a lot or I don't eat at all which is very dangerous. 

Lately I've been expecting bad things to happen...it's like I am waiting for it to happen not that I want it to but I just don't want to be surprised...I imagine the worse possible scenarios...which is bad. 

Hopefully I get better soon,

bye.