Missing you.

Today I thought about you and I cried so much.

To think that last year you only had 4 days to live.

I miss you so much.

I have so much to tell you.

I wish I had the chance to tell you how much I love you and how much you meant to me.

It's about to be a year since you've been gone and I still can't accept that.

I wish I could bring you back to life.

Why gone so soon?

Some will say that I forgot about you because I stopped talking about you every single day,

but if only they knew how you never left my mind.

 always think about you and I always go back to that day when I got the news,

I was on my bathroom floor crying because you're gone asking God why?

I could not believe it.

I wanted to wake up from this bad dream.

I wanted to go back to sleep and wake up to call you hoping you would pick up the phone.

No matter how hard I try to wake up from this bad dream it only got worse and worse as the days go by without you.

Some days tears would run down my face and I would wipe them off but today I let them drown my face, I could not stop them.

I thought there was a time limit to fully grieve but now I'm faced with the possibility that I'll never accept that you're gone forever.

will I stop hoping that one day you would answer my last text?

will I stop telling everyone I know that you're gone even if they don't know you?

will I smile at the memories I have of you ? for now I can only cry because it hurts so much to know that we can't make new ones.

You will forever be alive in my heart....

I can never forget how we used to be it's worth more than anything I have.