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how is it going?

Notice how I always greet all of you before I start speaking? unless it's a poem then You won't see me say anything and that's when you know my artistic fingers are going to take over. But I am not going to talk about that. It's not what I am thinking right now. It's a new year and you need to start thinking differently, I have. I started accepting some things I was denying in 2016. Reason why I am doing this is only because the first thing in moving on and changing things about yourself is realizing your flaws and what you were trying to hide. Writing these stuff down I mean the things that I was hiding was not easy. Talking about them is repulsive I can't believe I wanted that, said that, look like that, look at that....I mean sooo many things that I had to look back on. Reason I am telling you this is because sometimes you think ignoring or hiding something will make you not notice it, wrong ! It will be there you just don't think about at it as much. One day you are going to sit down and think about it and it will be hard on you because you had all this time to take care of it and you didn't. That almost happened to me but this year I am reviewing, taking stuff out right now, bringing new stuff in. 

If someone doesn't make you smile you need to let that person go. Don't hold grudges forgive them and let them go. If you want to be with someone and you see they don't want you as much you need to move on. When I was younger I wanted to be with someone older I said that before and I was not ready clearly lol and I am glad that we didn't end up being together because he did not want to be with a kid lol common' I mean he had options all I am saying is if the person you want has option well baby girl they were not meant for you. When you find the one no matter what you look like no matter what you do they will still want you and no one else and the thought of being with someone else would be disgusting to them. That person will speak your language, he will be by your side wiping the tears away and cry with you. The person you are looking for or rather the person that will melt all your senses away may not be handsome or gorgeous but they know you and they won't do anything to hurt you.

If you are a guy the one girl you are looking for doesn't only have boobs, ass and a pretty face but she has a heart and she will give you everything that she is. She will hold you down and be by your side no matter how broke or rich you are. She won't need another man to feel great because she will have you and that's everything. You in  the other hand you need to make her feel like a queen you need to be with her, you need to know how to love her and treat her right. You don't need another female because you have everything right here by your side. You don't need to go to the club with your boys and getting a lap dance by some exotic dancer because you will find yourself alone afterwards wishing you didn't go astray when you had everything. Now that you have her it may feel like you can do whatever you want because you think you have her but don't forget that she can leave you anytime. She is not here to put up with everything that you are willing to give. She is not a welcome mat you cannot walk all over her. She is not just anybody she is your soulmate and your right hand you need to get that to your head and stay faithful.

If you are a girl the right guy you're looking for is not always who you expect he may not be as handsome as Leonardo Dicaprio but so what? The right guy that you need is the one that will protect you, hear you even when you are babbling about stuff that doesn't make sense. He is the person who is never tired to kiss you, hold you or give you a hug even when you don't feel like being touched. When you are on your mood swings he is the one willing to wait until you stop PMS'ing, he is the one who wakes up at 2 am to make sure you Okay when you are crying. He is the one who is always constantly checking on you, doesn't want you to go anywhere, gets jealous when another guy is staring at you. He is the one who let you be yourself, never let you overthink because he knows that it will bring you down so he will try to distract you and make sure that you are happy. He is the one that makes your heart racing, makes you want to be at your best, makes you feel like the most beautiful girl in the world. He is the one that makes you smile, laugh and finally he is the one you can never run away from. So you don't need another man because you have everything right next to you. You don't need to go to the club with your girls getting drunk and embarrassing yourself because honey those days are over and it is not for you. Now you need to get your ass back home and love him.