Truth

Okay let's be totally transparent today.

I honestly feel like life is roller-coaster one day I'm up and one day I am so down that I can't even get up on my own. Being an adult is not what I had imagined when I was younger and I don't think it's anything like we all imagined it would be. Being 25 years old comes with a lot of pressure from family, society and even your own self because being at your prime and also at a reasonable age that you can get married and have children brings a lot of pressure.

I have been very transparent about my views on dating in the past and not that anyone would care because we are all adults here, we can chose whatever we want to! I can chose to date or remain celibate until I meet my soulmate right? whatever floats my boat! and that's the way it should be... that's what I thought but I couldn't be more wrong let me tell you the cons of those 2 choices.

1. I can keep dating until I find the one but I may risk getting disappointed or worse getting my heart broken which doesn't sound good at all right? but I guess I can welcome all the experience I would've gathered from all those relationships... but what if I am so broken that I can't even accept my soulmate when we finally meet?

2. I can remain celibate until I am sure that I want to be with that one person...sounds great but what if he never comes? then what? stay alone forever? 

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Love is straight forward for me, I like this guy then I talk to him and get to know him...whatever I find will determine if I want to be with him. I have had multiple crushes but I only wanted to be with one!!! 

If I don't like you then I will not even waste your time getting to know you because first impression is big in my book. If you didn't swept me off my feet at the first initial meeting then it's probably never going to happen. My heart is stubborn yet easy in love... It's always a straight yes or no there isn't any maybe in my book and if my yes turns into no it will never be yes again. sorry.