another one :(

Yesterday I came across a terrible news while I was doing my weekly trip on twitter. I was so shocked to learn that Dj Stephen with the nickname Twitch from the Ellen show has died at 40 years old by suicide. I truly believe that more of us are struggling in silence while pretending that we are happy and that we have it all together; it's nothing to be ashamed of to admit that you don't have it all together and that you are in fact miserable. This shows that men also struggle with mental health and loneliness, and it's even less likely that they will talk about it because men are brought up to be strong and to be the head of an household, but anyone can struggle mentally. It's time that we encourage our male figures in our lives to speak about their feelings and to discuss where they are mentally; let's keep the conversation open and let's be an emotional support for one another. If you are my friend just know that you can always come to me about your struggles please never make a decision that you cannot change, even if we're not friends we can still talk. I am not a mental health provider but I am an advocate, I know what it feels like to hit rock bottom. To be honest, you would be shocked to find out about how many of us are actually faking so let's opened up that conversion let's admit how we  really feel before we do something that we can't change.

Being suicidal is nothing to be ashamed of it shows that some things aren't going great in your life and that you need help mentally. Before you commit the act let's try talking to someone you love and trust; let's go to therapy and sometimes being suicidal is not our fault there could be some hormonal imbalance in the brain that causes you to be sad and want to take your own life so let's seek a pshycriatic and see what medication is available to balanced those hormones and get those endorphins flowing in the brain.

I have been very miserable and at times I do want to disappear but not in a way to take my own life. Going to therapy has helped me to regain control over my depression and those dark thoughts that often cloud my mind. Writing poetry about how I feel has helped and by the simple fact that I know a ton of us are going through the same issues and emotional heartache that I am going through make me feel like I am not alone in this. I read about people who went through similar problems as me and try to see what they did to get out of that funk. It's never easy to admit that you're really sad or that you don't have the will to live anymore... you might be scared that people might judge you but the only person who will judge you for being miserable are assholes and jerks so cut them all off (sorry for saying a bad word but those people had it coming) grab a scissors and cut them off. the right people will pull you in a hug and tell you that they're there for you whenever you need help (hold those people close to you they are angels)

Please dial or text 988 if you or you know someone who is struggling with suicidal thoughts.