struggles.

hey there !

how are y'all doing? well I am here hanging on that piece of hope that I had for quite some time now. I have been through a lot of hardhips and I know that I am a very reserved person sometimes it's kind of hard for me to come out of my shell. When it comes to my problems I have the tendency to hold that in and just keep it in when it should be the other way around. I should be using my hardship to motivate others in a way where I can tell them how I overcame and what they can do to get to a better place. Now I don't think that I am a role model or anything but I feel like I've been through some things that some of you may be going through right now and I just want you to know that you are not alone; I'm here and I am going through some hardhips too. 

Adulting*

I used to think that being an adult is fun. Don't get me wrong being an adult is not the problem here for me but all the responsabilities that come with  itis unbelieveable. If you're still living with your parents, not in college and don't have any bills to pay then consider yourself lucky because honey when I tell you it is hard to take care of everything and still go to school. I don't have any kids and I am happy that I don't right now because I'm still young and it would've been 10 times harder. I feel for the single moms, here I am working my butt off trying to pay all my bills and I still feel myself breaking. I love being independent, I hate borrowing, I love having my own stuff and for that I need to work for it. I don't want to be working my whole life, I want to write, I want to inspire people but I can't do all of that If I'm clock in somewhere and spending the whole day working and come back home exhausted ! I am not super woman and the bills aren't going to pay themselves.