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“ it’s hard for me to count on anyone because during my darkest hour there was no one.”
2022-06-13T21:38:14+02:00
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2022-06-11T19:41:09+02:00
2022-06-11T02:06:36+02:00
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“ If you’re not willing to meet me where I’m at then don’t bother to meet me at all.”
2022-06-10T17:45:30+02:00
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SAD
Seasonal affective disorder affects a lot of people throughout the world and it usually happens during the winter because it gets cold and it gets dark early outside; which causes certain people to get sad and want to avoid stepping out because of the sudden change in the weather.
Although all of that is justifiable but there’s also “Summer bleus” which is when someone gets more sad during the summer than the winter which is backwards but that’s what I have deal with. I love winter and I don’t feel bad for staying home whenever I want to but when it’s sunny outside and hot suddenly I feel pressured to go out but truly I just want to be home so now I feel bad; most of my saddest days have been during the hot and sunny days… I don’t know what the science is behind it and why the summer affects me that way but truly one thing that I find helpful is to let myself take breaks. I will hang out whenever I feel up for it and stay home without guilt tripping myself into going out because I know taking a break is like a self care for me.
If you struggle with summer bleus then don’t feel ashamed because a ton of people struggle with it and they might not even know it because we always believe that SAD occurs during the winter but that is not always the case; it comes at any given season even during the fall and spring. Try to understand your triggers, take breaks, practice self care and reach out to your friends for support. You are not alone. As the summer is coming in hot some of us may be excited while you start to feel overwhelmed well just know you and I are on the same boat. Don’t feel bad, your emotions and feelings matter.
We are in this together. :)
2022-06-10T17:26:12+02:00
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Why you attract toxic people.
If all the toxic people you have encounter in your life had a stamp on their foreheads saying toxic you probably wouldn’t want to talk to them. But as convenient as that sounds sadly we never know someone’s true nature until we try something serious with them.
You probably met a ton of or maybe a handful of people in your lifetime who appeared to be good people at first but they turned out to be the complete opposite of what you thought. Well let me tell you why you attracted them in the first place because it has happened to me. The fact that you’ve met toxic people throughout your life can also justify some of the toxic traits that you are now suddenly displaying because we tend to act the same as the people we hang out with. But I am not going to talk about how toxic people may rub off on you, I am here to tell you why you attracted them in the first place.
- You have a kind nature: toxic people love the loving, caring and easy going type of people because suddenly you have become their prey; they can insult you however they want to and gaslight you every which way to make you feel like you’re the problem and not them. Beware of those types of people who says “ if you’re weren’t this way this wouldn’t have happen or if you were perfect I wouldn’t—— “ just to justify their wrong doings. Don’t get involved with people who never take accountability for their actions.
- You often avoid altercation: toxic people love people who avoid arguments because they can do whatever they want and they know you won’t confront them about it because you hate doing that. You don’t have to love arguing but you should try to always stand up for yourself and confront someone when they do you wrong because your voice matter. Always speak up.
- You have a white knight savior personality: if you love to come to the rescue of everyone and always solve everyone’s problem then a toxic person might just prey on you and make you solve all of their problems while they do nothing. It is not a bad thing to want to save everyone but just always remember that you can’t save everyone and some people have to go though their own experience in order for them to grow so you don’t always have to come in to save the day.
- You’re reliable: although this is a good trait to have but when you’re dealing with a toxic person they may use it to their own advantage. They might just ask you to be there for them anytime they want to even if you have something important going on they will not even care, they will even make you feel bad if you can’t cancel on everyone else just to come spend time with them. Truth is they will always want you to be there for them but they have no intentions of being there for you, so really they are using you.
- You love to share: this is a great trait to have but again a toxic person might use you in a lot ways; they will take your time, resources and energy without any care in the world and they will not reciprocate it. Steer clear of those who take all your resources without acknowledging all the sacrifices you’ve made for them.
Toxic people are everywhere and it would be really nice for us not to encounter them ever again but sadly that may not always be possible but we can now distinguish some of their ways to avoid them…
2022-06-08T17:54:23+02:00
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If they truly love you,
they will love you in your rage of storm and through your tears of hurricane
but also during your rays of sunshine
because you were not made to love in parts darling.
2022-06-08T17:29:27+02:00
2022-06-08T16:05:07+02:00
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Following what I wrote yesterday, writing is art please don’t be concerned.
2022-06-08T16:01:51+02:00
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Let me tell you the difference between my 2 kitties although I love them both equally but they are both different!
Let’s start with Archie: he’s a very complicated cat it took me a while to fully gain his trust I think something traumatizing happened in his childhood because his tail is a little bent and I know that must’ve hurt; I haven’t heard any cats born with a bent tail, he doesn’t like being petted all the time it’s too overwhelming for him I only get a few minutes petting him and then I should leave him alone otherwise he will walk away, he doesn’t like being carried around the house but if I come home and I don’t pick him up to greet him he will get very condescending (that was my fault I always greet him like that since he was a baby) he is very jealous and if he sees me play with Pixie he will avoid looking in my direction and start avoiding me, if I don’t play with him immediately after playing with Pixie he will walk around the house meowing and crying!he’s also very jumpy !, he doesn’t eat any type of food, he doesn’t like sleeping on my lap because I pet him too much, he likes to do things on his own time, when I have guest over he always runs and hide somewhere so yeah that’s Archie ! He’s very complicated but I love him so much.
Now Pixie : she’s very easy going and I gained her trust the same day I brought her home, I can pet her as long as I want but only if I don’t rub her belly too much which is understandable, she loves to eat anything, she sleeps anywhere on my lap, on my chest and even between my legs! She loves to play and she’s not jealous at all when I am petting Archie she loves to watch Archie melt in my hands like a baby because he always walk around the house towering over her like a lion. She’s so easy and she’s not afraid of anyone and when I have guest over she will walk up to them and walk past them like nothing. She’s very brave and she stand tall when she’s playing with Archie! I cannot wait to get to know her more so far she’s a breath of fresh air and I love her so much.
2022-06-08T01:56:13+02:00
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I am afraid to give for I've given so much without anything in return,
I cannot lose another.
The friends I've had to leave behind,
all the love interests that have left me high and dry.
Why should I give you anything?
do you know how many times I've cried because I gave something way too soon?
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I have to protect myself because no one else seems to care.