It's been a while, I am still here.
I have not gone away yet but soon I will.
I am going to leave for some time and I may not come back.
I may stay where I am going even though I will miss you terribly.
But being near you and not being able to do anything I'd rather leave because it's eating me inside.
You will never know how much I wish It was not like this.
All the things that I want to say that I am not able to tell you simply because It wouldn't be the right thing.
I want all the wrong things...
when you walk away then I feel the need to walk away too.
when you look away not wanting to catch my reaction then I will do the same.
I will not give what I cannot receive.