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hey there? It really feels like I am on vacation because I don't have school physically but it's online and I do have to wake up early for attendance even if I do fall asleep again (let's hope my teacher doesn't see this).

While I was driving today something came to mind, I was thinking about all the hardships I overcame so far (not so cheerful I know) But the good part is that I came out a better person because I learned something. I have made a lot of mistakes and some of them were silly but I had to learn the hard way to let things be the way they are and not to try fixing them if they cannot be fixed. I felt bad for trying so hard to make things better between me and some people who probably doesn't even care about me. I was faced with the ugly truth that some people doesn't like me and there's nothing I can do about it but choosing me no matter what. The thing is when I pick me I get to faced my inner struggles and the enemy from within is the worse enemy of all. You can run from other people, you can hide and you can choose to ignore them but can you do that when you are your own enemy? you sabotage your own plan. You're the one putting doubts in your head, telling yourself that you are hard to love, not enough, not that important...the truth is I already said this people are going to hate you no matter who you are that is what some humans do but are you going to focus on the hate? there is so much more to accomplish. 

Life is not one big hole you're not stuck where you are, life is full of possibilities... no matter how stupid, dumb or blinded I have been in the past I believe that one day my eyes will finally be open (if they aren't open already) I believe that I will get what's mine and I will accomplish my dreams. Some of us get so stressed out about life that we forget that things can change for the better and that where you are is not your final destination. Yeah today you may be struggling financially, or having emotional trauma, trust issues, attachment issues.... among other things but if you have hope in yourself that you can change for the better and you're willing to put in the work then you can make it happen. 

Rejection will not stop me. A no will not stop me it only pushes me harder to work towards what I want. One close door doesn't mean that other doors won't be open. I will be fine and you will be too.