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some days I want to wake up from this bad dream where everything doesn't make sense.

I want to feel as if I never went through what I did.

I want to  stop hearing those words echo in my head.

I want to start breathing as if I didn't struggle to keep my last breath steady.

I want to eat breakfast without you on my mind.

I want to take showers without having to turn up the music because all I want to do is talk about you and I can't afford to hear myself do that again.

I want to rip every pages in my journal because all of them has something about you

. I want to drive without feeling like I was heading in your direction.