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May.

The month of may was the hardest month of the year for me, but all the hardships and all the emotional turmoil I went through changed the way that I see life itself. I cried, I smiled and I gave thanks to God more than ever because he had shown me a lot of mercy even though I didn’t deserve it. 

Last month showed me who I could count on. I am not one to share my problems with anyone but I know who I can talk to now. When I am ready I will talk more about my experience because I am still processing all the things that happened. All I can say at the moment is that I had 2 car accidents on the same day and someone could have died… that weighs heavy on my heart. The possibility that I could have went to jail scared me, people don’t expect that kind of things from me but like I said before anything can happen to you in life. My summer is not going the best way that I want but despite everything I am strong. I don’t know many people who would show up and smile after the things that I went through… 

That’s why I always say that I need a hug ( because I don’t know how to deal with everything, do I cry? Be grateful that it could have been worse ? Blame myself?) honestly I didn’t know how to forgive myself but God is helping me with that guilt. I will talk more about that later, I am not ready.