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Mental health.

It is never a straight line for me when it comes to my emotions, it’s always been a roller coaster but one thing that has helped me is knowing my triggers. For example, I know on my period I hate everyone, I cry a lot, I feel like it’s the end of the world… so I don’t let my emotions get the best of me because I know it’s just my hormones causing all these issues.

Some days I am happy, other days I feel so exhausted and ready to give up. I may make plans with you while I am happy and then cancel when I get sad please be patient with me I really don’t have it in me to go past my limit. I am going through a lot and going through a lot of changes, mourning the loss of a friend, and moving from missed opportunities but at the same time I am happy. Perhaps I am depressed and I just don't want to admit it but I feel fine even when I cry. 

Things get to me a little deeper than some people, nothing is simple for me! I overthink everything. A person not saying hi to me can cause me to feel invisible and start crying; yes I know that the fact that I cried shows that I am seeking validation from others but we’ve all done it. I am better at not letting things get to me but things like the death of a person that I knew really get to me. I should speak up but I do nothing. I just let myself feel the sadness hoping that somehow one day it will get better.