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Yesterday I had a moment of epiphany and I just wanted to cry! I realize throughout my life I was always the one who had to pick up the pieces all by myself. I was force to grow up at a very young age and went through a lot of traumatic events as a child; but quite frankly I never took those past experiences as an excuse I always knew that I had to be strong no matter what and that I had to work hard to succeed.

Yesterday I was with someone and something bad happened to me and the way he stepped up to protect me before I could even come up with a plan really touched my heart! I always had to be there for people but it’s very rare that someone shows up for me, they do but often times I wish I did everything alone but yesterday I felt so safe for the first time in my life with someone and I felt like I could just let him take control and take care of everything. Usually that doesn’t happen ! I’m always looking for an exit plan just in case I need to save myself. Then I realize this whole time not only have I been looking for love but I also want stability and safety because I need those things to be at peace. Not only did I felt safe but there was some form of excitement there! It was just amazing. I am glad I got to experience that for once in my life.