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Why didn't I start working out at the gym a long time ago? I ask myself this question daily! I can tell you that I am happier more than ever now that I've been going to the gym consistently. My mental health is a lot better now than it has ever been, even though I was in psychotherapy for the longest time, that didn't work for me! i was still depressed and lying to my therapist pretending to be happy so that they would leave me alone because my therapist would harass me constantly to make an appointment if my last session was bad or if I was crying in the session which I did many times! one time she called the emergency hotline to come do a welfare check on me like Girl! you're too deep in my business! I wasn't going to commit suicide I just needed to be alone, and I didn't want to answer her calls. After that last awkward incident with the police who came to see if I was alive, I stopped my therapy session because she made me sound like a total nutcase! I told her what I was going through and she exaggerated things! if it was up to her, she would have me admitted! like girl I was just sad and alone! it was not that deep. I did appreciate her efforts, truly I did but she was way too deep in my business when I didn't want her to be. 

I started going to the gym a few months after that incident and I've never been happier, all the adrenaline starts to rush through my brain as soon as I start to warm up. The gym boosted my self-esteem, helped me to look hot naked lol! made me feel even more confident, also helped with my social anxiety because walking around with tight gym shorts in the gym and lifting weight was so nerve racking at first because I felt so exposed! you gotta be confident to do that and now, I love it! I wouldn't trade the gym for anything, that's my only form of therapy now. I am glad that I chose the gym instead of sitting on someone's couch feeling sorry for myself! now I can be in the gym challenging myself and lifting weights. I am excited for all the growth, and I will continue to work even harder to achieve my goals.