Antisocial

Today is a great day,

Adele did drop her new album as promised but it will take some time for some of the songs to grow on me... I am in a good mood today because I tried this great salad place called Sweetgreen and now I am hooked; I will not go there a lot I will only go there when I want to treat myself. It's not such a surprise that I am discussing the topic of being " Antisocial", well let's get into it.

Do I believe that I am antisocial? Uhm yes, well not entirely but my social skill is worse than what it was at the start of the pandemic. I mean I cannot beat myself over it nor should I feel like a failure because so much has happened and I am honestly grateful to be alive today. I hope that all of you are doing well, I worry about the very few people that I talk to because if I talk to you every day consider yourself lucky because I hate doing that lol if I do it I must admire you. I talk to the same people every day, my mom is practically my sister and best friend and I just don't feel comfortable leaving my house or going to events. I am sorry but... I mean why am apologizing? that is how I feel ! I want to spend time alone, I want to stay in my bed and I don't want to go out right now. Maybe I am evolving or maybe I am beginning to appreciate the person that I am becoming and to love myself deeper than I have ever done in the past but all I want to do is to spend time alone while I work on myself; the finishing product will certainly be great but there has been a lot of tears, sadness, failed relationships that shapes who I am today. I am very grateful for all the good and the bad experiences because each of them has taught me something new. 

thank you for reading I appreciate you.