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2021-08-03T22:13:37+02:00

interlude.

Publié par Gaelle.R 3 Août 2021 à 10:13 PM

you left,

but I knew you weren't going to stay.

Before you left,

I was saying how you were going to find someone better than me.

I had already envisioned you with someone before you got with her.

Knowing you were going to leave,

I thought it was going to hurt less but it didn't;

It was so painful,

I was not able to bring myself to talk about it.

I didn't mention you and never looked in your direction after that,

Not because I hated you but because I wanted you to prove me wrong.

I wanted to say to myself that my calculation was wrong and that you were different.

I wanted to tell you that story as we laugh about it later.

But that never happened and once again I was right.

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2021-08-03T21:56:15+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 3 Août 2021 à 09:56 PM

"I am not for the weak grow some thick skin and maybe we'll try this out.

I am not cold hearted, I just always forget to show emotions.

I am not going to ask you to stay, I was already fine alone."

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2021-08-03T20:15:54+02:00

"your words against mine"

Publié par Gaelle.R 3 Août 2021 à 08:15 PM

I didn't change I just became who I was when you were not around.

I didn't stop caring, I never did.

I didn't leave you behind, we were never together.

I was not mean, I only told you the truth when you asked.

would you rather I sugarcoat the truth for you?

I never wanted to let you believe that it meant more to me,

you simply didn't listen.

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2021-08-03T19:40:46+02:00

why am I a Billie Eillish fan?

Publié par Gaelle.R 3 Août 2021 à 07:40 PM

I am not fan of her as a person because I don't know her personally but I love her music in a way that is insane and almost illegal. At first I was skeptical about listening to her music because I thought she only makes sad music but one day while I was going through my playlist on spotify I realize that I was listening to one of her song all along without realizing it! while I was claiming that her music is depressing or that it's boring without even checking her album out . That song I had in my playlist was come out and play, I remember a time where I was sad and grieving that song was on repeat and I remember how much I loved it, I still love it by the way. So I clicked to go into her album because Spotify give you the option to go into an artist album while listening to their singles...

That day I was at work and it was last year right before the pandemic! I was in a night shift and I was just bored; glad I don't work nights anymore I hate it. Uhm so I was sitting and I was like let me see what she sounds like as if I didn't already know ! so I started listening to her album when we fall asleep where do we go? Gosh I was hooked ! I loved it so much I cried :) I don't know if it was tears of joy or just bottle up emotions but I was balling my eyes out. Thank God I was alone! Then later on I proceed to listen to dont smile at me and I cried even harder!

The thing is when I first listen to her album I save a few songs and after a couple of days I go back and save every song because I just love them all...some songs do need a little time to grow on me but she is such a vibe. I watch her interviews too and to be honest I think she is so ahead of her time because not many people are putting out albums anymore most people just put out singles to create a buzz then go ghost but she put out albums, do concerts, interviews and meet and greets... she seems like a cool human being.

Her new album happier than ever that came out last week is mind blowing... so much vocals, talent ugh I love it!

Yes I am a fan of her music and I am surprised that it took me this long to like her, she is so amazing :)

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2021-08-03T00:30:35+02:00

fun questions.

Publié par Gaelle.R 3 Août 2021 à 12:30 AM

Favorite Tv show?

Smallville but it was a long season, The Good Doctor, Doctor House, Gilmore Girls, I am a little ashamed to admit but Gossip girl not the new one but the old one, All American but they take too long to bring out a new season on Netflix I just finish the third season and now my heart can barely hold until next year, Virgin River, lock & key and among others..

favorite movie on Netflix right now?

Miss Sloane, the last letter from your lover, Les Miserables, the time traveler's wife, brain on fire, the guernsey literary & potato peel ie society, wild child, resort to love, before I fall (I read the book in high school), catch me if you can, charlie's angel, the old guard, the prince & me, collateral beauty (get your tissues ready you will cry), life as we know it, 2 hearts (you will cry a lot), Audrey because I am obsessed with Audrey Hepburn, I care a lot, Rebecca, the saint... there's more that I like but I think that's enough.

which Billie Eilish song do I relate to the most?

come out and play, everything I wanted, hostage, bored, therefore I am, i love you, when the Party's over, I didn't change my number(100%), and happier than ever. I like bellyache but I don't think I relate to it

But I have her new album that was released on Friday saved on Spotify actually I pre-saved it since May and I've been waiting, I love her new album my favorite songs so far are NDA, oxytocin, Goldwing, Halley's comet.

Least favorite food?

spaghetti, macaroni, or pasta in general.

Favorite food I like to make?

seafood broil, tacos (my way), Ribeye steak & shrimp with mash potato with a side of either green beans or broccoli, grilled salmon... and some Haitian food that I won't mention

best discovery?

SNL on youtube at the start of 2020 and let's just say I love it.

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2021-08-02T17:06:34+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Août 2021 à 05:06 PM

" You can miss a person everyday and still be glad that they are no longer in your life." Oprah.

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2021-08-02T16:25:31+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Août 2021 à 04:25 PM

if you're reading this I would like to describe you.

you like to make sure everyone else is okay even if you're not.
You like to make others laugh even when you are sad.
you miss someone right now but you are not sure if they miss you.
you're afraid of intimacy because to you it feels like you are under a microscope.
You hate social interaction because it makes you feel overwhelmed and you can't really control how people are going to view you.
you don't trust easily because all of those times you put your trust in people they proved you wrong.
you're sad but you try so hard to cover it up.
you're afraid of commitment because you like being free and alone even if you complain about being alone all the time but you wouldn't know how to be committed to someone maybe one day that can change.
there's a lot of things you want to do but fear is holding you back.

…

this may not be you but it's someone.

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