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2025-03-17T08:53:55+01:00
To my beloved friend.
It pains me that I didn’t get to say goodbye or hear your voice one last time. You were always so patient with me, never expected much, never judged and always ready to give me all your love at any given moment. I will always remember you, I can never forget the warmth and kindness you gave me when I had nothing. I love you, until we see each other again.
Gone but not forgotten.
2025-03-16T19:47:11+01:00
Individualism
In a world where everyone wants to dress the same and act the same, please dare to be different. Someone that I think about while I am writing this is Emma Chamberlain I love watching her YouTube videos because she’s extremely different. Her art collection, her interest, the way she looks and how she acts is just so unique yet relatable.
We should all have our own thing, we don’t have to love the same thing or have the same hobbies. If I could have plants that would be something I would look into, if I could collect miniature porcelain figurines I would have those but my cats would destroy all of it! I love my cats but at times I do wonder how my house would look like if I didn’t have them. I love weird people lol because I’m weird ! I love people who don’t take life serious, who love an adventure.
2025-03-16T19:43:43+01:00
Facts about me :
For friends and love interest
2025-03-14T14:18:52+01:00
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I should've stayed home today I feel sick
2025-03-14T13:21:17+01:00
It's bad.
No one died but I am sad, and I actually want to die, you may be wondering why? well, nothing happened it's just my period is coming next week, and I get a lot of mood swings before it finally decides to arrive. You may be wondering why are you making a big deal about it because I've had my period for years? well, I am shocked each month I am depressed because I am getting my period, I never talked about that here because I didn't feel comfortable to share but after I saw cases of so many women attempting to commit suicide before their periods I thought I should shine some light on this. You know what's funny? as soon as my period shows up, I am happy again even if I am in pain, but I am no longer unhinged.
what are the symptoms?
for me I get extremely sad, unsure about what I want, angry, not confident, even more shy, quieter and my face looks pale. I am not as excited to do the things I love doing, I eat a lot or not at all, I write less, post less on social media (I don't use social media like that in fact I hate it, but I do love watching funny videos).
what I need?
A friend who will not judge, a friend who's nice to me... I am very vulnerable and tearful. I even want to cry right now.
but don't get it twisted after all of that I am back to my confident self and breaking hearts :)
2025-03-13T13:04:00+01:00
UCL night
That’s what I’m talking about! The games are exciting and they’re getting tough. We had another penalty shoot out for Real Madrid vs Atletico Madrid last night! I was at the gym watching the game on my phone and I was jumping lol I didn’t care if people were watching me. I met two guys who also love football they were watching the game and laughing at my reaction. We talked about it right after it was sooo fun I am so glad they didn’t ask for my number because that would be awkward!
Obviously Real Madrid won! But atletico Madrid put up a good fight they even scored the first 30 seconds of the match and I was scared! But I know Real Madrid always start playing well during the second half to accomplish another remontada. Mbappé earned us a penalty and gave Vini the opportunity to scored the penalty but Vini missed! I loved Jude reaction he went right up to Vini to console him and to tell him it’s okay. Everyone was shocked that Vini missed the penalty and we were all wondering why didn’t Mbappé take his own penalty why give it to someone else?! But it’s okay I still love Vini and Mbappé also missed a penalty not once but twice back to back! It’s okay all great players have off days. I still love my boys. During the penalty shoot out Julian Alvarez goal was disallowed because of a double touch of his feet ! “Did anyone see a double touch “ the coach of real atletico madrid asked after the match? YES I did and we all saw it. Real Madrid is going to the quarterfinals to play against arsenal !!! I cannot wait
Side note I love meeting people who love soccer like me! There’s so much to talk about.
2025-03-12T17:49:05+01:00
As someone who's very creative and loves to write I never try to shine any light on my craft. I should but I don't, I have many unpublished stories. I am scared to share my work with people but then I realize no one cares! they will either love it or hate it. When I first started my blog, it was a secret but then I started sharing it with a few people even though I was scared out of my mind. I am a perfectionist, so nothing is good enough for me when it comes to my own writing.
I just started a podcast and honestly, I don't care if no one listen to it because most writers or creatively incline people get more accolades and praises after they die. Take a look Sylvia Plath the woman who wrote " the bell jar" but then tragically killed herself in an oven ugh what a tragedy. She never published her own work, her husband did after she died, I believe (don't quote me on that because I think I read it somewhere) needless to say people didn't know about her true talent until after she passed away.
I will continue to write my heart out and publish new episodes on my podcast to share my thoughts because I deserve to have a voice. I deserve to share my artistry, my legacy will live on when I die :) my children will see how I grew up and what I was talking about when I was younger... it's my own time capsule. I don't care if no one reads my stuff or listen to my podcast it's all for me not anyone else; although I am glad to share with people who are interested.
2025-03-12T15:41:13+01:00
PSG shocked me once again!
it was exciting! I was at the edge of my seat at one point I was screaming. The only team that can take Barca out is PSG! mark my words the final team this year will be psg vs real madrid! what if psg win the champions league ugh Mbappe will be so mad for leaving lol
Geez I love PSG so much I need a jersey ASAP this team is exciting to watch and full of surprises
2025-03-12T03:42:56+01:00
2025-03-11T14:38:28+01:00
what's going on?
I am everything but fine! I am able to work out and thankfully my energy is not depleted but mentally I can't. I feel overwhelmed, anxious, tired because of the time change? I suffer from summertime blues but that usually happens at the end of may that's why I started working out last year because I knew I was going to be depressed so I dragged my ass to the gym, and it worked lol it wasn't bad at all if my memory serves me right.
well, I am over it. sorry I might take a break because I am not stable at all. I am confused, sad, mad, tired and undecisive right now.
If someone hug me today I might start crying.
Journaling helps me to process my emotions because I could never fully understand what I feel or why I feel that way so reflecting on it helps me to grasp what I am going through to move on from it. whatever you're feeling let it go through you don't try to rush it because it will come back, just let it hurt so you can start the healing process after. If you start the healing process too soon you won't fully heal from what hurt you. Cry, scream but don't dwell on the feeling.
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