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2025-11-19T13:06:14+01:00
“ and on a random day I decided I won’t love you anymore. I didn’t care if you noticed me, if you called or if you cared. I simply decided to move on despite how much my heart cries your name. I muffled the sound of my pleading heart with logic, and decided you’ll never love me. I started opening my heart to the possibility that someone else will. I let myself think of other possibilities because you’re no longer my end game.”
2025-11-18T16:24:48+01:00
it is very strict around here!
I am in bed by 8pm and fall asleep by 8:30pm so I can wake up at 4:24am daily. I only eat my meal prep during the week and I can only get takeout during the week end. I don't drink juice, soda, ice cream or alcohol I eat healthy chips and once in a while I may have unhealthy chips. unless I am at a party or hanging out with someone and that almost never happens more than 5 times a year. I don't drink when I am on a date because I want my mind to be clear to see what's in front of me, If I drink it is not a first date .
I have many rules I follow (I won't list them all because most of you will think I am crazy lol)
2025-11-17T16:29:27+01:00
I am tired of men asking me dumb questions to get to know me!
Don't ask me what my favorite color is if you don't have a plan... why are you asking me this? are you getting me flowers? or are you getting me something? don't ask me what my favorite food to eat is if you don't plan on taking me to a restaurant... you're juste wasting my time with needless conversations. Telling me I was going to get you flowers, I was going to take you out is pointless in the words of Nike JUST DO IT!
Don't tell me what your plan is JUST DO IT. I get bored fast, if you want something with me come with a tangible plan because I will be blocking you and stop talking to you in less than 1 month. I have no patience anymore, I have wasted my time enough talking to people I didn't even need to get to know because now they're just strangers to me. I don't ask questions anymore, I let the conversation fall silent. Have a plan and then we can talk. People I know won't do nothing for me don't have their numbers saved in my phone, I am very strict when it comes to love...I have no problem adopting a child and move to the UK with my 2 cats.
2025-11-17T14:51:09+01:00
2025-11-16T23:38:03+01:00
“He pulled me in closer and I almost wished I could take my words back, but I couldn’t because I meant them. He kissed me and I kissed him back not because I love him but because I wish I could.”
2025-11-15T02:41:32+01:00
I can’t date anyone with a crazy ex, I don’t wanna die. A Crazy ex who’s delusional about a man that I am dating or married to is never safe, I will gladly leave him to her. I am not fighting any girl for a man, you can have him. I am not going to end up in a casket for no man. I’ve seen way too many crime of passion to let a man with a bunch of obsessed girls after him ruin me.
2025-11-14T18:46:50+01:00
There's a huge difference between believing in female empowerment and feminism. I used to be a feminist, I used to love hearing Emma Watson talk about what feminism means when I was in high school. Little by little I started believing in equal pay (which I think that one is fair, if I am doing the same job a man does, I should be considered for my experience and level of education and not for my gender) I used to believe in the saying my body my choice (this one is controversial if a woman chooses to wear short and revealing clothing and God Forbid she get raped I do believe she should have protected herself better and no she's not responsible for the rape because men should have control over their lust but she should have covered herself not to enticed sexual desires from the wrong people, I do believe I can wear whatever I want for my husband and not for the public to gawk at my body) saying things like I can dress however I want, have sex with as many men as I want, have an abortion if I want, drink and party however I want because I control the narrative and have the power over my body is laughable because if you're doing all of this your reputation will take a hit. You mean to tell me as a woman you don't care about what others think of you? well you might not care for a moment but when it's time to get married or time to get a reputable job then you will care. A woman cannot replace a man, I used to believe a woman could do everything a man does! but boy was I wrong. No a woman cannot do everything a man does because men and women think differently, act differently, feel differently. A man can sleep with 2 girls and be okay but a woman can sleep with 2 men and not feel okay... I don't believe it is okay for woman to raise a child by herself just like I don't think it is okay for a men to raise a child by himself, a child need guidance from both parents. I don't think it's fair for a woman to not want children solely because she hates the fact that only woman have to suffer to have a baby during childbirth, get over yourself life is tough! being able to have the ability of carrying a child and giving birth is powerful! if a woman doesn't want kids because she simply doesn't want that responsibility or their health doesn't allow it then that's perfectly fine. I don't believe all woman should have kids, some women definitely should not have kids because they are not fit for that but if you are fit to be a mother, responsible, healthy, have the financial means for it then why not??
As a woman I do believe we should respect ourselves before we look onto others to respect us. I do believe in dressing modestly and not having to feel uncomfortable because my dress is too short. I love to feel like I am dressed for any occasion, oh I gotta go to court, a wedding, a meeting perfect I am ready... for the gym I always wear a big shirt over my shorts I hate when men gawk at my curves. It is okay to take care of your body for yourself and for your health but acting selfish is not okay. You are allowed and you should say no if you don't want to have sex with someone.
women empowerment to me is being able to walk into a room and being respected for the person you are, being responsible and being educated. Being able to thrive in life because of all the decision you made to have a better future, I love seeing women in the gym working out out and lifting weights, I love seeing women supporting one another and standing up for the ones who can't fight for themselves, I love seeing women taking accountability, women protecting children, a woman with abs!, women working hard to have a great life...all of that to me is female empowerment and not a woman in skimpy clothing parading her body around to only be sexualize by men. On that note, I hate when men see women as just a piece of ass, what about all of my accomplishments? my dedication? my hard work? my work ethic doesn't any of that mean anything to you? or am I only good for sex?. I love women who stands up for themselves in a toxic relationship because I don't believe a man has the right to mistreat a woman in any way just like a woman doesn't have the right to mistreat a man.
Yes, I do believe woman should be protected and sometimes a man might be the protector and other times the man can be the one we're running away from.
2025-11-13T20:30:35+01:00
I am starting to take creatine again starting yesterday I will tell you how it's going in 1 month. I did take creatine before which was last year and I didn't have any side effects except I was bloated but I realize I am pretty much always bloated so that doesn't really matter.
I am only taking it before my workouts on my leg days which is 3 days a week. I will have to drink a lot more water yayyy me more trips to the bathroom to pee :) well I don't mind it. Creatine is suppose to give me more muscle definition and more volume as it draws water to the muscles. I took it yesterday and I didn't feel any different during my work out I was mostly sleepy, I took a 2hrs nap before going to the meeting. I even researched if creatine is suppose to make you sleepy lol because honestly I was ready for bed during my squats lol but I pushed through!
2025-11-13T15:20:30+01:00
Last month I went on a date, it was very laid back we were basically catching up because we've known each other for a while and this was our third date. We went to a bar where you can also eat, we sat in front of the bartender who was a girl.
She came with our drinks but before we get to that let me just say how hard it was for me to pick a drink! I didn't know what to drink! last time I had an alcohol drink was at a pool party in august I think and it was just a beer. I don't drink alcohol anymore because of my addicting personality, I am addicted to dopamine rush which is a feel good hormone and that explain why I am so addicted to working out which is a good addiction to have. I used to drink a lot especially in 2020 I would buy any types of strong alcohol drink! and drink the whole bottle in less than 2 days! one day after I was sick and I am sure I had alcohol poisoning but I didn't go to the Doctor to confirm. I woke up and threw out about like 5 bottles of hard liquor down the drain and ever since then I stopped drinking I would have a half of glass of wine once in a blue moon. But I did stop drinking for a good 2 years. A glass of wine can last me 2 weeks now and I only drink 2 months out of the year actually barely... I might buy 2 bottle of wines a year. Before it used to be 2 bottles every 2 days!. I can't be around people who drink a lot I feel uncomfortable and I don't want to relapse...
So I had my date pick out my drink (I didn't tell him about my problem I just acted cute and dumb and said with a cute face" pick a drink for me, I am so overwhelmed" lol if only he knew!) I am not in too deep with him so talking about my alcohol problem is wayyy too much lol. People who've known me my whole life don't know much about it imagine someone I've known less than 3 years lol.
anyway back to the date: the guy I went on the date with is a gym head just like me and we were comparing how much we squat and deadlift and hold and behold, here comes the girl butting in the conversation to brag about how much she deadlift! geez is this your date or mine? she then proceeded to pull out her phone and show us videos of her pulling a car... ok we get it you're strong. But that was so unprofessional and she kept looking at him and only talking to him! personally if I see a couple out I don't pay attention to the guy I talk to the girl because I don't want her to think I want her man. I am not exclusive with this guy but we're on a date, she kept talking to him she then proceeded to touch his bicep! at that point I was fed up. I looked at him and say" this needs to stop, either you keep talking to her and I'll leave or you ignore her and continue our date." he was actually still paying attention to me while talking to her but I wanted all the attention! lol that's not too much to ask I just wanted him to be all about me! sure he did feed me and only kept his eyes on on me after I told him that. But It's the principle if you see a couple out on a date you simply don't interrupt them.
I am jealous, if that was my man I would tell her " don't touch my man" and when she left us alone I would have kissed him right in front of her to show her that's mine.
2025-11-13T14:39:02+01:00
2 public figures I absolutely cannot stand and one of them will shock you!
Megan Markle: she keeps calling herself a Sussex like girl you left the monarchy in England and you took Prince Harry with you. Sussex is a made up title you're no longer royalty and you never were the prince was!, she keeps saying we need privacy yet she does multiple tell all interviews, has a Netflix show, has a podcast to get to see "the real her" yet all I got from all of it is how entitled, fake and delusional she is. You mean to tell me you didn't know who prince harry was? yet we see photographs of you in front of the palace! how in the world you not know Princess Diana's boys !? you were literally in England visiting! so you heard about Princess Diana but not her sons? oh ok lol why does she always have to walk in front of Prince Harry ? ugh she loves the spotlight way too much and Harry looks miserable with her. Where are the children she keeps talking about?? why is every family photo seems like a photo op for the public? there's nothing natural about her at all everything seems forced, rehearsed and planned.
Michelle Obama: That lady complain about everything! I bought one of her books " becoming" in 2019 and after reading that book I concluded she's very self centered, shallow and vain. She's educated sure but a little vapid in my opinion she's too self obsessed. she think everyone is obsessed with what she has to say... well I am not. She openly admitted she couldn't stand her husband for 10 years like what do we do with that piece of information? as a public figure she should have never said that. She's always trying to be relatable like ma'am you were the first black American first lady! you were married to the president of the united states there's nothing retable about that and that's okay. Jackie Kennedy who had her husband, a sitting president shot right under her nose never tried to be relatable. Staging a target run to show everyone oh look I am civilian I shop at target too, oh please.
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