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2026-08-04T03:59:20+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 4 Août 2026 à 03:59 AM

Empath.

Being an empath I can tell when someone feels threatened by me or when someone doesn’t like me. I don’t need them to tell me that. My friends usually say “ Gaëlle how do you know this person doesn’t like you they haven’t said anything bad to you”! That’s the thing they don’t have to! I can read their body language, the way they look at me when they think I’m not looking, how they speak to me, what they look at when they are speaking to me. The way they respond to me when I initiate conversation, that’s all I need to take my distance. I don’t ask why, I don’t ask what I did because I accept that not everyone will like me. It used to bother me because why would someone just not want to be nice to me when I haven’t done anything? But I realize that you don’t have to be rich or the prettiest person in the room to be envied. You could be hated for the way you carry yourself, for how confident you appear or for even existing ! Some people can feel threatened by your mere presence. You don’t have to do or say anything.

I stay far away from these people because I don’t know their intentions, whether they are envious, admiring or hating me i don’t have time to decipher I will gladly stay away. Of course I will not leave the room if need to be there. No one can intimidate me into leaving. If I leave it’s because I feel that my presence is not needed. The same way they get to be in the room is the same way I get to be here too. They will see me and choke if they want to, I don’t care.

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2026-08-04T03:58:57+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 4 Août 2026 à 03:58 AM

Some people have told me that I can be self centered and I take it as compliment. They think I would be offended but no! Most of my life I always made sure everyone was good at the detriment of myself. I would show up with the little bit that I had and give it all to ungrateful people. I’ve been ridiculed for my kindness, made fun of because I chose peace instead of retaliation. Of course I will remain kind but I won’t always be nice. Truth is now I don’t show up when I know I can’t. I only give what I can give and if I don’t have anything to give I won’t suffer for it.

I care more about my wellbeing than anyone else would ever cared. If I don’t show up for me who will? If I don’t make sure I have what I need who will? Most of my life I’ve been alone, I hustled and made way to survive.

I have no interests in making myself small in order for people to feel comfortable around me. I am who I am, yes I will work on myself because I don’t accept that we should stay who we are, there’s always room for improvement. But I will not bend over backwards just to make people happy anymore. In the end, I always end up alone in a dark room crying. The only constant presence in my life is my mom and my cats.

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2026-08-02T23:49:43+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Août 2026 à 11:49 PM

Hug.

Last year I went on a date and I had a good time. At the end of the date we hugged and I never forgot that hug. I truly let myself be free in his arms, in that moment I let my guard down entirely. Usually I don’t let people hold me or invade my space I always have a barrier but that day I let all of it down and I let him hold me. He held me for what felt like forever. I felt all of my broken bones being put back together, it was healing. I wanted to cry, he held me so tight that I could feel his heartbeat beating at the same drums of my heart. It wasn’t sexual and I did like him a little but not enough. If he was someone else I would’ve said yes but it was him and he’s not right for me.

I wish I could be hugged like that again, he didn’t rush it, he didn’t squeeze me… he just held me and that felt so right. He wasn’t tall so the height difference wasn’t a problem. I wish he was different but he’s not. Shortly after that I let him go. My friends always say why do you let all these men go just to be single? Don’t you want someone to talk to?! Well that would be me stringing them along and I hate that. I can’t have them all to myself and I don’t want any of them either. It’s better to say goodbye than to hold on to something with no purpose. I know I’ll never be with them, I know we are not on the same wavelength… why would I waste their time? I’d rather cut it loose than to drag it.

But that hug was magical to me. I didn’t think I wanted to be held and that’s what made it special because the moment he took me in his arms I realize I needed that hug. He felt it too and he held me without any restriction.

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2026-08-02T14:13:46+02:00

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Publié par Gaelle.R 2 Août 2026 à 02:13 PM

I just want to clarify, I don’t hate all men. There are a few men I truly loved for example my dad, all of my uncles because my mom has 5 brothers that I know (she only has brothers), a few guys I’ve had crushes on not many but those guys were always on my mind and I would be ready to defend them. After I moved on I could see how they used me, how they weren’t good for me, how they lied to me, how they manipulated me… but for the most part I don’t hate all men.

It’s true because of my past experiences with men that weren’t good, their actions made me become cautious of them. Where I can quickly trust a woman even though some have deceived me but most didn’t, I wouldn’t be so quick to trust a man. I don’t believe all men are liars, cheaters and manipulators. There are good men out there and I hope I meet one. I’m not saying all the men I know are bad. What can I say men have not shown me anything that would make me trust them.

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