diet.

I don't know how to feel... I've gained 5 pounds and I didn't really plan on gaining weight, I was afraid of going down this rabbit hole again which is obsessing about my weight. I went through so much those past 2 years! but I am fine with what I look now and 5 pounds is not a lot.

I think having a great and healthy diet will help keeping your weight in check but sometimes not even your diet can save you! Some medications can make you gain so much weight, genetics play a role in that too... I think there is more to life than obsessing about one's appearance. Truly I am trying to be happy and to remain happy for as long as I can, I hate being sad and feeling hopeless. I hate stressing about things that really doesn't matter and one thing I try to have is the "so what" mentality like so what I don't have any close friends? at least I am close with my mom, so what I made a mistake? we all make mistakes. For the first time in my life I am not caring about what people think of me or whether or not they like me and by doing that I feel happier, more confident and free to do whatever I want...