friends

I will be very honest in this; I am a very blunt person, and I am also an empath so I know what will hurt someone so if I choose to say it that means it needed to be said.

I am not a very good friend right now; I don't feel like I am. I would want to apologize to all of my friends, but when I am going through a lot I don't want to talk to anyone and so I ignore them and if it's someone who is not my friend but who is bothering me, I will block you; I have no patience and that is something I am praying Jehovah for. 

I am never afraid to let go of anyone, that the sigma in me. I can be your friend today and strangers tomorrow; but I only act like that if:

1) you hurt me or made me cry and I realize the friendship is not good for me.

2) you lied to me! I could be in love with you but if you lie to me about something serious then we're done. I forgive you but we're done because I hate betrayal. I am the most loyal person you'll ever meet, if I am your friend no one can talk bad about you while I am there, I will protect you, fight for you, stand with you, love you unconditionally, I will help you, always one phone call away and if I am your girl don't worry about any other guy except Mbappe lol, when I like someone everyone else just seem dull ... I am so loyal that I am even faithful to my crush who didn't even like me back !

3) if I get the slightest hint that you're using me or don't even care about my feelings then I am gone. I don't have time to ask why? or ask you to care for me... that should be natural and if you don't care then why should I consider you a friend?

I had this person I was talking to for maybe 4 months, and he was a guy and for a while now I have been meaning to unfollow him on Instagram because I felt the energy was off. Like I said I am an empath I can sense a lot of things and I felt something was wrong, so I went to investigate... I saw that throughout our whole conversations he never once asked me how I am doing! he never even cared to ask about my wellbeing!! and you think I will keep you around? If I see him again, I will say hi but that's about it. 

I am not heartless; on the contrary I have a big heart, and this is why I am protecting myself. I love hard and I care a lot but when I stop caring it's over, I will not care anymore.