love.

oh my what a subject for me to talk about !

I don't think I have ever been in love with anyone who is not my family member or a boy I would say. Why? because I like protecting my heart, I think guys are just immature these days and all they want to do is come in get something (I will keep it pg) and leave. In march last year I have decided to only date people from my circle but immature guys are everywhere. I have had crushes but they never lasted long. I move on quick to the next or not, it's exciting then it's not. It's fun and then it turn into something I hate with a passion...I don't hate anyone, I won't give anyone that power over me  I just simply move on with my life. I believe that I have a lot to offer I will be just fine. I am not desperate in love If I like you I will tell you and then I will move on if it's not it. I don't think I can ever like anyone after 2018 (no story time)...I thought I liked someone turns out I was just physically attracted to that person...what a boomer? but I am sure that person hates me now after I did some stupid stuff. Everything come and goes, everything is temporary (someone told me that)I thought it was a very sad things to say until I take a look at my life. Feeling fades, people change, they just become cold and all that's left is nothing.

Why am I telling you this?

Yes I am a very private person. I am writing about it because I want to and you don't know the details anyway. I have been very private about my life lately and I am not sure if can let just anyone in yet. With everything that is going on I have been feeling on edge. I am fine emotionally but I am just very protective of my heart like we should be with washing hands and keeping our distance.