reminiscing

I see all the pictures of us,

a warm feeling comes over my heart as I think of the old times.

suddenly I get this feeling of panic looming over me.

I am wondering why I smile and you don't in some pictures.

I am looking at them closely and the more I look the less genuine your smile seems.

I am asking myself now if you really wanted to smile or were you doing it by routine.

I can sense something that wasn't there before.

suddenly I want to close my eyes and be transported back to old times....