update.

hello It's been a while,

This blog is my everything and I feel like I haven't given it much love for a while...so I am here again to let my frustration or whatever is bothering me out in a calm fashion kinda way. I like to believe that I am not aggressive never mind what other people think.

well so far I have been doing what I do best...I stay to myself I haven't done anything to let anyone in...It's not the right way to go but I can shut out the world If I want to, only to protect me. I will do what I can not to get hurt ever again and if that means shutting most people out I will but I won't hurt them. I don't like hurting people because I hate when people hurt me why would I want to hurt someone? the point is my world is far too fragile for me to let anyone break in it. There is nothing in trying to protect yourself but I do what I do because I have reasons to...I know It's weird if someone were to look at my life in dept they would be mesmerized but I don't want to focus on that...It's the past and now is the present and I have to keep fixated in the future forget the past. I know the feelings and the thought might still be there somewhere...who knows. But life is too precious.

this year I am not going to worry like last year, so far everything is alright. I avoid places where I don't feel myself, I do what I want. I see the people I want to see well most of them only because I have been acting like someone who's not me and now I am trying to find who the real me is. If that means exploring on new territory then I will