winter time.

I have a love and hate relationship with the winter times, I do love being home when it's cold outside snuggle up with my cats and some hot tea while watching my comfort movies but sometimes when it gets dark outside at 5pm I literally don't want to do anything. I am sure a lot of you feel the same, this whole week my brain has been trying to get adjusted to this time. I have been procrastinating a lot lately and I am not being productive because when I get home from work all I want to do is sleep and snuggle up in bed; I have not been cooking as I should or cleaning that much. 

One thing people forget to mention when you are dealing with mental health issues is that you fall behind on a lot of things especially with cleaning because you already feel so drained, unproductive and tired so the last thing you want to do is clean. That doesn't mean you are a dirty or a messy person; you are surviving and you are here so be proud of that. I hate mess so you know what I did? I left work early yesterday while the sun was still out just so I could go home and clean. The way that I was rushing to leave to go home you would think that I had an emergency; I mean I had a cleaning emergency that's what it was !

I do love knowing that the sun is outside even If I am not outside but knowing that it's there makes me feel a lot more productive... does that make sense? I mean it does to me so I guess that's what matters.